In the shadows L.S.

15. Cold-hearted

Louis' POV
3,5 weeks past full of lies and honestly I have the feeling to tell Harry that this whole relationship thing was set up. Zayn knows about it , he changed it's something Harry does to people he makes them soft.
Zayn screamed that it was a sick joke playing with someone's heart. I can imagine that but still i'm a pathetic fuckhead I need those pills for my mom.

I just saw Niall walk in by Harry and he's in there for 20 minutes or so, I'm a bit stressed my mom pissed me off yesterday and shouted at me why I was even helping Niall. She knows Harry's mom Anne and said she and he don't deserve it. Then it stayed quiet for 2 minutes and she said that no one deserves it. I fucked up , I fucked up badly not only Harry but my family too. Niall comes back playful smirk on his face.

I wonder what happend there, you can just take a look? No you can't you have to lie again if you go back in there. So what i'm really good in lying. I walk on my tippytoes to the door and open it , I close it gentle and walk to Harry. 'Haz? Psst' he doesn't look up. 'Harry it's me Louis' I said a bit louder , still no movement. Panic starts building up in me 'Harry!' I said really loud now still no movement.

My heart bangs hard in my chest , it feels like he is dying. I start shaking him 'Goddammit Louis! Keep your fucking filthy hands off me!!' He shouted , I'm taking back by his raising voice it scared me....since when??

'What...but..dafuq' I rambled his eyes spat fire the anger in them it is scaring me this is build up anger , he's so angry that his eyes are getting teary. It is that he's tied on a chair but otherwise I would have runned by now. 'You are the cold-hearted human being on the world' he said lip trembling heavily. I want to open my mouth but he cuts me off even before a word can leave it 'No! You are gonna listen to me! I gave you my heart , my poor heart who's been stabbed thousands of times , where is stepped on by my own family , that same heart is used by people and then throwed in the bin. And now? Now it's used again by you Louis I feel so fucking dumb so naïve while I actually knew it' he said raising his voice by every word.

I'm taken back so taken back 'I opened up to you , I let you experience how it feels to have someone to lean on cus' sure as hell you needed it , your guilt weighed so much that you couldn't drag it on your own well good for you Lou cus' you gave me a part. I should've known you were bad news but something in your eyes told me not , that borrowed depressed feelings told me to give you a chance even when you didn't deserve it. I was just a puppet for you but now I know the truth and I hope your mom is feeling well' He said hint of sarcasm at the end. I look at him his emerald green eyes aren't that emerald anymore they're a dangerous dark green colour. 'All those kisses we shared I thought it meant something to you but no it was nothing to you' He said in a loud voice.

My heart beats so fast that it feels like it's gonna jump out of my chest , I don't know how I keep my breathing normal normally I would have had an panic attack. 'You are nothing but a selfish , pathetic , little , cocky son of a bitch! Thank you for shattering me once again into pieces who are this time so little I can't pick them up anymore , thank you for making me feel so much more unloved than my parents did , thank you for beating my sister up by the way because she had the guts to go to the police for her little brother! Thank you Louis for everything you messed up for me , my heart hurts, my emotions are on a high level, my head runs wild and the rest in my body feels numb that is what you do to people you hurt them mentally' When he finished i'm trembling he's right I don't do anything right , I hurt people my heart starts speaking to Harry 'It was never meant to turn out like this! The first time we kissed wasn't part of the deal I done that because your lips screamed for it, I enjoyed that kiss every kiss actually what made me go crazy cus' I can't accept myself if i'm gay , the others times I done things were planned but my feelings when I done them not, no one made me feel this way Harry and it scares me. I'm pathetic and believe me I say this a lot to myself , I needed those pills Harry or my mom will die if I don't get them, she was poisoned by Niall that was the only way he could keep me in his company. That is no excuse to hurt your feelings but it was more important for me. What is cold heartness and you're right everything except off that about your sister I didn't attack her' I spoke tears rolling down my face 'Don't lie to me!' He shouted he copies my tears 'I've seen it Niall showed me' suddenly everything came clear Niall has told Harry everything , he must have known I saved Harry from those rapists. 'Niall is an asshole, he's a liar and he would do everything to make me look worse than I already do to you' I said the blood in my veins are boiling 'Oh yeah? I recognized your hoodie from the time you only stalked me and besides that are you sure you talk about Niall and not about yourself?' he said a good argument comes up in my head 'Everyday I go to you on the same times right? How late did that happend with your sister' he thinks back '11:30 in the morning' He said.

'Aha and I check you always on?' I said. '11:30...' He realised 'I didn't attack your sister Harry' I said.
'Whatever you're still a son of a bitch' He spat 'You know what? If my arms weren't tied I would have hit you right across the face' He said angrily.
'But thankfully for me they are' I joked pissing him even more off than I already did. 'Leave.right.now.' He said slowly. For the first time I listen to him and leave.

I walk up to Niall in the halls, smirk dancing on his lips 'Let me guess you didn't want to make it easy for me' I'm really upset why do I feel upset? Did I really like Harry? Wasn't it an act? Why can't I just understand myself. 'I know you are good Lou I don't want you to be fast done' He said dark chuckle.

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Sorry for the shortness ( I think I made that up) Niall is a dickhead in this story and is totally not based on his non-fiction self cus' non-fiction Niall is to sweet for words :)))
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