In the shadows L.S.

12. Lips lips lips I kiss

Louis' POV
Harry looks at me trying to cover his body it's a sad thing to watch. I see his eyes are red 'W-why you do this' he asked broken 'What! I saved you I didn't do anything' I feel exstreemly offended , I would never let someone rape someone else.

'I would never let someone rape somebody else' I said 'How could you know it was happening tell me Louis!' He yelled but his voice breaks when he says my name.
'Zayn told me for godsake! You really thought I would love to let you get raped or something?! Well I might look very bad but you don't know half what is going on!' I yelled.

'I fucking hate you!' He screamed 'And it's so frustrating cus at the same time I d-don't hate you' He said. I'm confused does he hate or not? 'I honestly don't know how to react' I said confusing all visible in my voice.

'Louis I deserve to know the truth about why i'm here tell me please' he begged I swallow. 'Harry i'm gonna be honest with you , believe me when i'm saying I have no clue I can't imagine you doing something wrong' I said with a guilty smile.

'So you really don't know?' He asked one more time , I shake my head. He curses under his breath 'Can I ask something and please promise not to laugh' I said anxious , why am I doing this.

'Always , I promise' he said trying yo confess me by keeping the most serious face he can make.
'You are gay right? uhm I was thinking when did you know you were?' I asked trying to hide the blush on my face.
He looks at me anxious 'Uhm I knew I was gay since I was 16 , I didn't dare to come out because of the judgements but came out when I was 18 sadly my nightmare came true but it was less worst then I expected' He said. 'But like you said 16 but how did you know?' I asked really interested.

He turns a bright red 'There was this student from Australia his name was Ashton Irwin and he was a total hotty , cute dimples , adorable laugh and yeah just my type , I fell for him immidiatly. I didn't know he was gay so I didn't make a move or something at first I was really angry on myself for being gay but I accepted it it's not that you can change it , I was born this way' He explained I nod 'You can be proud of that , I have a friend and he is a closet since he was 15 and he is now 24' Harry looks sad 'Some gays are just so scared but honestly i'm proud I came out' he said.

'Does your parents know you are gay?' I asked he nods , he grins 'My dad didn't take it good , my mom was proud and Gemma didn't changed her behavior to me but sometimes I think my parents, like you said like Gemma more because she is straight' He said I see the pain in his eyes.

'Your parents are idiots , if they serious like you less because of your sexuality than they aren't you even worth! you are as much worth as I am , Zayn or whoever you can think of and don't let anyone tell you different even if I tell you' I said my voice trembles a bit this guy feels so unworthy it's not fair.

'Why do you self-harm Louis?' He asked my heart stops beating and I feel myself getting dizzy. Now my hearts starts racing. I'm gonna get a panic attack I feel it. As fast I can I try to leave the room but I walk up to him. My boss. He grabs me and I'm having more trouble catching my breath 'No no no no' I said trying to control myself but I can't i'm already seeing blackspots and I my knees can't keep me up. The voices around me grow silent but the voices in my head scream loud insults.

I'm crying , I can't handle this , I can't handle this panic attack this one of those worst ones where I am left with the voices in my head. My body goes numb and everything disappears.

Harry's POV
Right after I asked panic was all over his face , his chest going up and down rapidly what is not so good sign. He starts walking away fast in like almost running he walks up to someone. 'No no no no' he said weakly , he can't hold himself up anymore. He's crying loud , his complete body shots down and he just doesn't move anymore.

My heart beats in my throat , what if he dies? It's my fault if he. The man lifts him and I feel jealousy rush over me , why am I jealous? Because he can touch Louis that way. Okay it can't get any worse , I have a crush on Louis. How am I gonna survive this ? He doesn't like me back he is straight. I have to get over him.

I can officially say I have Stockholm Syndrome , never thought this would happen to someone like me.
What do I need to do? I can't just tell Louis that I like him who knows how he'll react. He'll react bad i'm sure , he is as straight as a ruler.

But he did ask about how I find out about being gay, no don't give yourself hope. Never say never.
Ugh I have to stop it's just sad.

Louis' POV
I woke up in a grey room , I don't seem familiar 'where am I' I said like in a cliche movie where the girl is brought to the guys house.
'You are in my room worthless mess up' why did he need to help me , why couldn't it be Zayn or Harry... Wait what. 'You have bit much issues maybe I just fire you and won't give you any medicines' he said , I start panicing 'No please I have panic attacks for a long time and you never knew I can control them this was just once please my mom I don't want her to die' I begged , I never begged him this is a mega step.

'I like it when you beg , makes me feel powerful' he said with a smirk , don't let you get fooled by his adroable face there's pyscho inside of him. 'I give you one last chance to get it right Tomlinson, I want you to kiss Styles make him feel save and loved and then we crush him you and me together' He said I swallow thickly 'If you do you get all the pills and i'll never bother you or your family ever again' he said 'Okay' I said.
'Have we got a deal' He asked wiggly eyebrows 'Yes we have' I secretly cross my fingers. Who knows maybe I have to break our promise.

Openly the door I see an frowning Harry he looks up 'Are you okay omg' he asked I smile at his worried voice.
'I'm okay it was just an anxiety attack or panic attack what you want to call it' I said , he still looks worried at me.

'If I could I would have helped you' He said , he is just adorable.
'It's okay like I said i'm used to it' I said 'Do you have them often?' He asked with a upset look , I nod.
'Fuck Louis you don't deserve it' He cursed and it sounds so sexy.
I bring my face closer to his and he stops breathing , I gently place my lips on his and our lips brush together like they are meant to be.

To make the kiss more dangerous I press my tongue hard to his lips forcing him to open up his mouth.
He goes with it and I start circling in his mouth he moans softly and my stomach bursts with butterflies.
My hand cups his cheek , he can't move what made him groan in irritation. 'Should I help you out babe'
I said love drunk. He nods and our lips take a pause I fast untie his hands. I sit down on his lap , he puts one hand on my bum and the other slips around my waist.

He pressed his lips om mine again and this time the kiss is more heated.
His hand rubs my bum and pinch it making me shriek. Our tongues stay moving in synic and now I start thinking i'm not so sure about my sexuality anymore.

'Louis what the fuck are you doing?!' Zayn screamed my eyes shot open and I jump of Harry's lap. We are trapped , I look at Harry his lips are swollen and a darker shade of pink.
I smirk proudly , I look back at Zayn he wears a shocked expression.
'You didn't see anything' I said in a dark crimson colour.
'How do you thought I can forget that!!!' He said dramatic 'Remember I walked in when you and Perrie had sex ? I want you to act like you never saw anything like I did' he turns bright red and walks away. 1-0 for Tomlinson.

I smirk down at Harry who's lips are swollen 'I hope you enjoyed that' I said with an raspier voice then normal. I flanel out the room before he even can answer and meet the boss at the corner , my smirk falls. 'Good job' he said , I nod.
'He's falling for you , maybe this isn't gonna take so long and feel free to go out of the building with him as long as you don't let him escape' He said.
'Okay' I answered walking down the halls.

I didn't kiss Harry so passionate because I had to I kiss him like this no I had the agrue to do it like this.
But I don't want to be gay , I know I am but I can't accept myself when i'm gay.

But damn Harry is a great kisser , he pleasured me more than any girl I ever dated. Why he has to do this to me it's only making this harder.

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I seriously loved writing the Larry kiss
Am I the only one who can imagine them making out like that?!
If Larry has sex who tops and who is the bottom? *smirk emoji*
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