My Mine (Trey Burke Fan Fiction)

Prologue

Him.

My only sight.. Gone

My only love.. Gone

Life as I know it.. Gone.

It's hard to sit here and think about all the things that went wrong when half my brain isn't even functioning. Could it be the light in my eyes or the distant voices chanting in my ear as I try desperately to focus? My body is easing but yet my brain is active. I could hear you but I can't see you. I'm blinded. By life, blinded by choices, and blinded by this blurred light as it get closer and warmer; yet it calms me into a state were I'm not sure I want to leave. But then I hear your voice again in my ear begging, pleading but why? Why are you crying? Why are you begging me to do something I have no intentions on trying to do? You want me here but they don't. Why all this now when this is your fault! My anger, my choices, this fucking light in my eyes; all this is because of YOU!

I could've walked away like I was planning on doing but you made me stay. I could have pulled the trigger that night but YOU stopped me. I could've killed you but somehow deep down I knew that if I were killing you.. then I'll be killing me. But look where I am! Filled with anger, pain, and humiliation. YOU did this to me and now you're in my ear chanting the same shit over and over. I'm not doing it, I'm not going to sit here and watch you take the only little bit of control I have to myself. You took everything from me and I'll be damned if I let you take this. You were just as dirty as them. You hurt me just as bad and now you think I'm going to listen?! I got into this shit because I wanted to but you wanted me out and now I'm here.

It's funny how the devil himself could turn out to be so beautiful, so mouthwatering; but under all that lies his dark evil soul. You sucked me dry and left me there claiming that you'll be back. You left me to deal with things alone and when you do that .. things happen. I want to be there but I can't. I can't put myself into your hands again knowing that those exact hands are nothing but leaches feeding on the little part that's left of me. I have no soul, no heart, and my mind is invaded by you. I can't think, sleep, or eat without feeling your disgusting presence near me begging and pleading.

I want to be alone like I was before I met you. Before you sucked me dry of life. Now this one chance I get to restart everything you're telling me no?! With you I'm nothing, and without you I'm me. But how could I blame you? I sat there and watch as you took me by the hand, I saw your true form and it was beautiful. So could it be me that sucked the life from you? Could I be the leach? Could I be the devil himself as I prayed on such beauty? That could be true as your voice gets louder in my ear still begging and pleading but I don't want to listen. Could this choice be one of the many dreadful things I brought to you? This light is getting brighter and warmer. It's so beautiful just like you and I want it. The closer I get the more my mouth waters. I think I'm smiling. Smiling at the fact that your voice is getting harder to hear as the sounds of waves crash against my eardrums. It's singing a sweet melody as the rain drips down my face but yet the sun kisses my skin. The light is getting dimmer now as I'm realizing that all along it was me. I'm the reason, because with you I'm everything and without you I'm nothing.

Her.

How could something so sweet turn so bitter?

Pain.

All around me is pain and you're the cause of it. I could sit here for hours watching you as you selfishly throw everything away. Everything we built and strive for, or was I the only one? Am I the only one trying? I'm begging you and yet you're not listening; you never listen. The blame game is always evident with you and for once could you stop being so stupid and listen. None of this is my fault.. It's yours. You are the reason for these tears; you are the reason for these feelings. I hate you. From the bottom of my soul I swear I hate you.

The pain you caused me is so deep because you imprinted it there. You cause me to slip away into a world unknown and tore me from the only life I knew. I cried a thousand tears for you and what did you do?! Nothing. You fed me lies to pull me in closer to your disgusting soul and you destroyed me. I'm not a person anymore. I'm a lifeless body walking the earth in search that hopefully one day this pain will leave. One day I could wake up and be new. I hate you . I hate your look, your smell, YOU. Your touch is so soft it's almost sickening. You're a beautiful monster. You took my life, my body, my mind. This is your fault. If you would've just stayed away; just leave me alone. I can't stand to be around you.. you're everywhere. You feed off me as if I'm yours.

I'm blinded by you. Your presence makes me sick yet I crave it. I'm an addict for your taste, you're heart, your soul. I want to pull you in deep so we could be one. I want to feel your heart beating against me, your blood rushing, I want to feel you. I'm selfish so maybe this is my fault. Maybe I'm the reason this all is happening. That beautiful monster could be me because I knew that you could do no harm. All the harm done was by me and the hatred I have is towards myself. I'm realizing that I took your hand and lead you to a place that was unknown. I pulled you in so deep that you're drowning in nothing but pain. I'm sucking the life from you. You're beautiful yet I turned you so cold. You're leaving me now and I can't help these tears falling as I beg for you to stay. I'm praying that you stay with me as my tears drip down your face. I can't help as my lips kiss your warm skin as I chant your sweet melody. I love you.