My Mine (Trey Burke Fan Fiction)

Chapter Three

Trey.

Your touch was always so calming; your voice was always so soothing. If I could lay with you all day I would. My feelings for you grow every single day and the longing for you to be next to me gets more intense. She could never be you and you could never be her. She gives me certainty; she was always going to be there. But you gave me fear. Fear of rejection, fear of a broken heart. I had love for her but I was in love with you and the fear of losing you always weighed heavy on my mind. But those sweet memories.. I want them back.

July 30th 2012

No one compares to you.  

I couldn't get enough of her. My nose trailed down the side of her neck as her sweet smell filled my nostrils.  My lips would gently place a kiss against it ever now and then before my fingers slowly glide themselves against it. Her breathing was steady as her hands pulled me closer as if she want us to be one. She was mine and the smile that I felt against my ear proved it.

"You don't know how much I care about you." She would whisper in my ear every time my lips landed on the spot below her ear. "You don't know what you mean to me."

She didn't know what she meant to me. She was my disease without a cure. She could break me with on word and she didn't know that. This girl was my flower, so sweet and delicate and if I didn't take proper care of her she would die. I was her everything and just like she needs taken care of, so do I. My arms wrapped around her waist as I rested my body ontop of her. My face buried in the crook of her neck as I just laid there letting her hold me. I needed this and she could only give it to me. Her legs wrapped tightly around my waist and her arms around my neck. The soft touch of her fingers trailing down the back of my neck kept me calm as her lips landed against my jawbone.

"You're turning gay." She mumbled slightly against my cheek. Her voice was filled with humor as I chuckled softly against her neck grabbing her waist tighter. Even with me laying ontop of her I still felt the need to have her closer.

"Shut up before I change my mind." I joked making her laughed. A small smile played against my lips when she let out a small breath. I could lay like this forever if I could. In her arms away from any problems I may have. The more I laid here the more I felt the need to tell her how I felt. Could I do that? I doubt it. I just wanted her to know that my feelings for her are real, I don't want her to have a doubt in her mind that they're not. She deserves to know how I feel. But I know I'm not good for her.. not with the shit I'm going through right now. She put me on this pedestal and I just keep letting her down. She want me fully and I want nothing more than to give that to her. Give her me as her own.

"Janice." My voice was barley audible as my face buried more into her neck taking in her sweet smell.

"Yes?"

"You deserve something better." I muttered. Her body grew tense as her grip on me got a little tighter. She was quiet for a second as my thoughts flooded my mind. She did deserve better and I was holding her back. She could go out and be with any nigga she wanted but she couldn't because I didn't want to let her go. I want her happy and it seems like the more I hold on to her the more I'm breaking her heart.

"I know." Her voice broke slightly just as much as those two words left me to feel some type of way. Her fingers massaged my head softly as her legs wrapped tighter around my waist. "That doesn't mean I want it."