I knocked on the door of Ken-chin's room in fear........
Ken-chin opened the door.......
Me:.I'm home......(I said this quietly and didn't even dare to look at Ken-chin, I stared at the ground)
Ken-chin didn't say a word.....When I looked at him, he slammed the door in front of me after a few disdainful looks.........
I stood in front of Ken-chin's door for a while with my eyes downcast, then I went into my room and called Sanzu to see if we could meet, he said yes, I told him to come for me if he could whit motor cycle.......Here in front of the brothel......He said he could come........I told him to come here in 10 minutes if it's good for him too........He said it was good for him........After 10 minutes, Sanzu was already in front of the brothel.......
S:.Hi(smiles...And interestingly, he came here without a mask on)
Me: hello......I see you're getting used to not wearing your mask in front of me......(I went to him with a faint smile on my face)
S:.Hey......What's wrong?
Me: huh? Nothing.......
S:.I see something is wrong......
Me:.It's n-nothing........
S:.Come sit up behind me.......
Me: okay.......thanks.......
I sat behind Sanzu and held on to the back of the bike......Sanzu grabbed my hands to pull them forward so I could hold on to him.......I pulled my hand back and held on to the back of the bike again when Sanzu suddenly rolled forward a little quickly and I leaned forward and held on to Sanzu........Then we started and just rode the motorbike, we didn't talk much to each other, but I still felt good sitting behind him.......I didn't tell Sanzu because I had nothing to say......And why didn't Sanzu tell me? I do not know that.........Even at the beginning, he mentioned that there was something wrong.........I didn't tell him......
Me:.It's Ken-chin.......
S: hm?
Me:.Ken-chin was the problem........More specifically, me
S:.Tell me...... I'm listening to you.......
Me:.well......(I told Sanzu what happened in the last two days.......except when I met Rin and Ran)
-strangely, Sanzu didn't say a word while I was talking.......no one has ever paid such attention to me-
That's all he said when I finished........
S: I understand.......
Me: wh-what? R-really?
S: Yeah.......You know.......You should let people come closer to you........
Me: huh? What do you mean?
S:.You know, I figured it out.......You think you don't have friends because you don't even want to realize that you have them.......You still think that friends are unnecessary.......That's why you think "how could I be so stupid to let so many people close to me".......And you try to push them away.......Or am I wrong?
Me:. n-no......Everything is as you said.......but........How do you know all this?
S:.I recognized you..........
Me: oh......uhm.......
S:.look Akina.......I have to go now......
Me: oh.....okay.....Can you driver me where we met?
S: Yeah sure......
Sanzu was exposed where we met.........then I went home........
A week passed......Although it passed very slowly..........Ken-chin and I haven't spoken all week......It's Tuesday......Tomorrow I will meet the leader of the certain gang that Rin and Ran are in........I didn't really do anything, I just waited for tomorrow.........
It's Wednesday now..........morning 7:00
I got up and after breakfast I went for a motorbike ride..........I met Baji while I was riding my motorbike......
B:.....Oi! Akina!
Me: hm? Oh......Baji.....
B:.You and Draken made up already ?
Me: no....not really......why are you asking?
B: oh.....just for curious........Just because you were arguing........
Me:.We don't get along easily after we've had a fight......
B: oh.....I see.....
I exchanged a few words with Baji and continued riding....
In the afternoon, I was at the agreed place at the agreed time.........But I didn't see Ran or Rin anywhere........I waited a little longer for them to appear........
Me:.Now you're late.......
Rin:.I know I know......
Ran:.Come on......
Me: okay.....
We started and at the beginning we didn't even speak to each other......and meanwhile I wondered if what I was doing was really right.......I had such things in my mind as, for example.........That might not be right after all.......Maybe this shouldn't be solved that way.......Maybe you shouldn't do that.........Perhaps it would be better to turn back........Maybe I should leave them here.......Maybe it would be best if I went back to Okinawa........Minutes passed and we got closer and closer to the place where the leader of this gang is waiting for me............I was already thinking that I would rather have an accident again than meet this particular leader............But then I realized that there is no way out..........Suddenly I realized that I have been talking to Rin and Ran for quite some time.........And I realized that they are quite good heads.........And just because they belong to another gang doesn't mean they're assholes.........
Ran:.hey..... Akina........
Me: hm?
Ran:.You don't like to talk or what?
Me: what do you mean?
Rin:.well........you don't talk to us much, but if we initiate the conversation, you participate in it...........
Me: just because I don't start the conversation, doesn't mean i'm not dying to speak to you........
