natalia diana miller twenty - four new york city ———
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"so it's just forget me and everything i've done for your career?" dawn ranted as i threw my hair in a ponytail.
"okay dawn i'm sorry." i told her, shaking my head. "i didn't mean-."
"but you did! you natalia you don't care about anyone but your fucking self, you so selfish."
"dawn i didn't mean for the photos to get out-."
"how am i supposed to explain this? oh, natalia miller out prancing with a narcissist, emotional jerk." she spoke. "perfect headlines huh nattie" she went on.
"or even better, natalia the slut, how does that sound." she basically yelled throwing the pictures over at me.
it was picture of me and marshall getting inside his car the day after my birthday, followed by pictures of us at a breakfast.
me of course i didn't think anything of it but why would i?
i don't think i think of marshall like that, he's a great person, from what i can get from him at least.
not what everyone persuades him as.
"okay can you stop... what do you want me to do dawn?" i asked her.
"you're not going to see him anymore." dawn said to me as i frowned.
"but-."
"no fucking buts natalia, he's going to ruin your fucking image. he's not good for you." she said.
i sighed, getting frustrated with this conversation. "okay dawn, okay." i said shaking my head.
its been what? three weeks since i spoke to marshall anyway.
it didn't really bother me because i understood the pressure he was going through. he had hella stuff to do, finishing 50's album, working on his group's d12's album, making beats for other artists and even himself.
i understand his stress...
i always felt like we did have some type of connection, when it came to having a lot of pressure on our backs.
no i couldn't exactly relate to him but in a way i could.
"i'm not trying to fuss at you natalia, you can do as you as you please but think." she said as i nodded. "you know, you guys are two different people, he is a negative influence and i don't need him so please... do the right thing." she said as i nodded.
"finish the video with curtis... be cordial with them but after that it will be no more."
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"i wanna get drunk tonight." meg said as i shrugged, laying in my bed.
"that's what's up."
since my conversation with dawn earlier, i just really wasn't in the mood to do much.
today i did some screen time for the money honey and also did a small photoshoot after the conversation with dawn.
i didn't bother to speak to marshall nor ryan today.
i figured ryan was probably busy doing whatever he does in a day. to be honest i questions myself of being in a relationship with him.
don't get me wrong his a great guy, really cute but i just didn't think he was my type.
he was like a vanilla type of relationship guy.
i mean, it's what i should be into but i feel like at the point in my life, i should have some excitement, some fun. just something different with no boundaries.
i do want to live for once in my life.
im tired of feeling stuck in my life.
maddie laid beside me. "what wrong baby?" she said me, pulling me head towards her.
"i dont know-."
"you do know nattie, come on talk."
i sighed. "i don't want a vanilla relationship mads, is that all im worth?" i asked her, moving my hair from my face.
"awww." she said hugging my head. "what did eminem do?" she asked as i shook my head. "justin."
i stuck my tongue out and pointed at it. "gross."
"dawn." she getting it correct as i nodded. "what did that bitch do now."
"she wants me to stop seeing marshall."
"why?"
"bad for my image, she says... i don't know... i think- maybe she's right... i don't know, but what if she's not." i went on shrugging sitting up. "maybe im just reading into the whole thing wrong, maybe he just sees me as a friend. maybe im fucking delusional. i don't know-."
"awwww, nattie nat as a crushhh." meg gushed as i pouted, stopping the blush from coming on to my face.
"it's not a crush." i said as they both laughed.
"awww baby it's okay." mads reassured patting my head. "well i dont know if it is for someone like him... he is a little-."
"sick? crazy? immature." meg said making me laugh.
"why all of that though." i spoke as mads smiled.
"awwww first stages of love, defending him." she said smiling hard as i smiled too. "you know what we're going to the club tonight, it's been what months, get your asses up and let's go." she said getting up and standing on my head.
"you." she said pointing at me. "your going to get fuckkkeddd upp tonight."
"finally." megs said standing up. "maybe you'll get the balls to tell eminem how you feel."
"no." i told them, shaking my head.
mads smirked. "oh?" she said with a evil little smile. "well then meg, gone head and call dawn... tell her that justin invited-."
"okaaay, im getting up." i said playfully rolling my head at the girls. "i hate you."
