Travel//5sos ✔️

19.

SA! TRIGGER WARNING!

carly and i talked on and off about mom till the end of the session.

i thanked her and quickly left her office.

i walked to the entrance and saw madison walking in.

"hey." i smiled.

"hi! want to go back to the same spot?" madison asked.

"duh!" i replied with a smile.

we walked up to our secret spot on the roof.

i offered her a cigarette and we began to talk.

"i love you." madison spoke suddenly.

"i love you too, as a friend." i added.

"wait what? i thought you loved me as more? you're supposed to love me as more." madison spoke slightly agitated.

"okay, calm down. i never said that." i spoke calmly.

"tell me you love me as more or you're going to regret it." madison spoke slowly.

i didn't respond and got up and went to walk away when madison grabbed me back.

"what the fuck!" i yelled as i tried to struggle out of her grip.

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madison grabbed duct tape from out of her bag and tapped my hands behind my back and my mouth.

i tried screaming yelling in hopes that maybe i made enough noise.

"if you won't love me i'm going to make you love me." madison whispered as she stuck her hand down my pants.

i immediately froze.

the whole incident went faster than i could even process.

i was a virgin.

it hurt.

after what seemed like eternity, madison took the tape off my hands and mouth.

"now you love me right?" madison smiled.

"no." i replied as i sat there with tears dripping down my face as i shook.

"you'll learn too. i expect to see you up here. if you tell anyone i'll really hurt you." madison threatened as she left the roof.

i slowly stood up and wiped my face off and began to walk downstairs.

ashton was right, she was a fucking psycho.

i walked over to michael's office and knocked on the door.

i opened the door and saw him sitting there.

"hey love what's up?" he spoke quickly as he stared up at me.

"nothing much." i muttered with my head down.

"what's wrong?" he spoke immediately sensing something bad had happened.

"nothing. just don't want to be alone." i spoke with a forced smile.

"you're eyes are red and puffy. don't lie. what's wrong? are you hurt? sick? not feeling well?" michael spoke softly.

"i'm fine. just please let me sit here." i whispered.

michael hesitantly nodded and left me alone with my own thoughts.

the rest of the day went by and soon enough we were back home.

i quickly ran upstairs avoiding all of their looks and straight into the shower, where i started sobbing all over again.

i felt so dirty. i felt gross.

i scrubbed and scrubbed at my body until the feeling of her hands on me were finally starting to disappear.

i saw a text from her saying to meet her up there tomorrow. i didn't want too, but i didn't want to get hurt.

could i get more hurt than this?

i laid in bed and curled up into a ball.

i heard my door open and quickly shut my eyes pretending to be asleep.

the person who came in seemed to believe me because they left the room and turned off the light for me.

god, i was scared for tomorrow.

the next morning i headed over to the hospital with ashton again.

i met madison back at the same spot.

"how are you?" she asked with a smile.

"doing great and you?" i mumbled as i avoided her eyes.

"great, do you finally love me? i would hate to do what i had to do yesterday. you were a good girl by not telling though." madison smiled brightly.

"look, i don't know what the fuck is wrong with you, but i don't love you and i never will. never fucking contact or touch me again you psycho." i spit out as i began to walk away.

i guess she had different plans.