The things I would do for me and for you.

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I wish I could put it on paper
Front page of the local news
How I feel and why
I am feeling used
I'm tired of being laughed at
Tired of the side eyes and whispers
Tell me we are friends
And if I react wrong
It disappears

All I want is to please you
To be happy
And to feel
Hold me in your arms
Tell me everything's okay
Tell me its all fine
Tell me it will pass by.

Imagine thinking someone loves you.
Someone puts all your time into you.
Makes you feel wanted and enough.
Just to walk away again,
Along with half of my heart.
I wanted it to be real
For our love to last forever.
But you took my heart
Turned it dark
And covered the light in shadows
And cobwebs too

Why enter my life to leave again
I'm tired
Of the paranoia
Of feeling like it could end tommorow
Of being me.
Too loud.
Too quiet.
Eating too much
Eating too little.
Attention seeking
Or being too much for anyone.

One minute you love me
And the next you wanna leave.
From day one you lied to me.