No, th-this is not real. H-He can't be a-alive..
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Shockwave was stunned by the sight in front of his optic, it was his sire who he thought was offlined long ago. Even so, the frame of his sire seems very destroyed, the right pede and the left servo was gone, dripping energon onto the cold, metal floor but despite doesn't have a pede, his sire can still walks up toward him like it's normal and so Shockwave instantly walks back back to his berthroom, he tried to closes the door but the dead mech just go through the metal sliding door and walks toward Shockwave until the scientist falls onto the berth, slowly retreats to the corner of the bed and trembling in fear. The reason why the scientist was acting like this is because he has entered phase 2 of the side effect of the liquid recharge pills and that is hallucation, but people didn't called Shockwave is an emotionless monster for nothing so he didn't backs away anymore, he just sitting there and looks at his sire's dead optics.
"Shockwave, I'm dissapointed. No welcome for your-" The dead mech got interrupted.
"Sire? Then no, I have never saw you as one at all. For all these vorns, you NEGLECTED me since I was a sparkling." Shockwave emphasize each word one by one.
"Oh please, do you think I wanted a thing that is the reason caused my sparkmate's death?" Shockwave's sire scoffs.
The two stared at each other for an hour but Shockwave didn't say much, he grabbed a data-pad near the berth's headboard and started reading it, even though his father was rambling on beside him. If you want to give an example of Shockwave current relationship with his sire, you have to take Shockwave's love like a pile of papers and his sire's harsh words like a flame and the next thing you see is the pile papers was burned to ashes by the fire down to the ground. Shockwave just continued to read until his sire, the dead mech has said something that just sightly triggers him.
"What did you just says?" Shockwave looks at his sire, the dead mech can senses the anger in his words.
"Well, I don't think you'll gonna live for long, my mechling." The dead mech smirks
"I beg your pardon?" Shockwave deliberately asked only to receive the answer he predicted.
"You will get offline and you'll be forget forever. Forever alone." His sire replied.
The dead mech keep whispering into Shockwave's audie receptors, saying sooner or later, his friends will betray him, will betray his trust for them and he didn't deserve to be forgiving for the sins he made in the past, at the current, as well. The efforts that he tries to have the respect, not pretense from everyone is just useless cause Megatron, the mech he served for eons will just offline him if he has no more use and again, Shockwave will just be alone from when he was young till he died and he can't change it, and it's the truth. The scientist kept ignored the whispers until his sire was gone, but now he is questioning him self, is he really just denying the fact that everyone he cares about will go offline or will betray his trust? Or will the scientist got offline but without any mechs or femmes care to bury him? And is he slowly accomplishes his sire's goal, is just killed the scientist himself? Shockwave wants answers but now, the biggest question in his proccessor was...
Is he deserving to be cared? Something that he probably won't have in his whole life
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My lonely past (Shockwave TFP)
FanfictionWhen Shockwave's carrier died after giving birth to him, his sire blames him for his carrier death and neglect him. Even after he went to college, the neglection from his sire gets from bad to worst and after Shockwave's sire died in the war and he...
