Take care

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Previously

But nun better than that.

Summer Miller
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And then my second fight was about like a pen or pencil the girl was about to stab me with the junt too, I was scared to go to sleep so many nights babe.

He blew his blunt out towards our room as I sat on him in our bath with my arms wrapped around his neck, he was so warm.

It's ok to be scared aslong as you do with what you got, but don't worry about that shit no more you ain never going back aslong as I got a say...I got us the best lawyers alive

I don't think I'm really angry about my time away besides the new and unknown danger.

What you mean you not angry bout that shit? We could have been did this shit we prolly could have been married by now ion think you getting it. I was-

I get it baby I do but we have to be realistic..real with ourselves and those around us. I can never marry you without going back to jail. And while I was away I wasn't angry because it gave me a more clearer mind to think through.

I was without you for 182 days. And We can get married it might not get through in court but it doesn't mean I can't put a ring on your finger, it doesn't have to mean nun to the whole world but it'll definitely mean sumn to me and you fuck the license for that shit

I don't need a ring to prove that I love you or that you my man forever I just need you here every day and loving me like you do.

I'mma do that regardless even if you try to leave me alone don't mean imma leave you alone

I love you papa

How much do you love me than

I giggle and sit up from hugging him as he moves his hand that was holding his blunt out of my way so I wouldn't get burnt before he hit it waiting on me to talk.

I love you so much that I could-..

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We had finally finished up bath time by 1 in the morning and was in bed laying naked as he rubbed my back in the dark of our room quietly as I just ran through my thoughts.

I can't believe someone wants to marry me well not someone because he's really special to me it's just I didn't think he was into that, I never forreal thought about marriage because it's kinda once in a lifetime.

And who would even walk me down the aisle, I like traditional shit and my ppl are gone his don't talk to him anymore and it's stressing me.

If we were to get married there would be no one to walk me down the aisle..our kids aren't gonna have any grandparents and we-

Shh you think too much mama my nephew or somebody would walk you to me, our kids don't need an older set of parents if they want some body we'll get em some god parents but you got to remember through all this shit, everything is just temporary even people like we all gotta go one day ma

I don't want to..I'm scared that if I just sit in a darkness forever like no lights or anything and I never see you again.What if I don't even remember you.

I'll make you remember me when I find you again when I say I want forever with you that mean I want you in that casket too..I'm gon be buried right next to you so youn gotta be alone ever again.