Excruciating

hospitals

Alex P.O.V

"Jesus Lexi, why did you have to drag me to the hospital this early. I swear!" We were now in her car going to the hospital, as you guessed it im not very happy about it.

"Stop complaining i'm doing this for you okay. You need to get checked if your positive or not" she side eyed me. I gave her big smirk at this knowing exactly what to say to get back at her for bringing me out of my comfy peaceful safe home.

"Oh you mean for COVID nine- " I didn't get to finish before she shushed me giving me a side glare.

"Don't say things Like that. You would bring negative energy" she reached onto her compartment and brought out some kind of perfume and sprayed the air very dramatically I might add. I chuckled at her reaction.

" You are so dramatic sometimes " I voiced out my thoughts looking at her.

"No, I'm just more focused on what kinda energy I manifest into my life" she said looking very proud of what she said. Sometimes I wonder how she's still friends with me when I'm like the definition of negative energy sometimes. But those 'sometimes' are really the most negative I get which I guess can be hard on her since she's the most positive person I know.

"So hey I was thinking since like my cousin is getting married next month I should get him something but then like I don't even know him and honestly I just don't want to spend my money on him cus he is a total jerk every time we see each other. What do you think?"

"Well maybe you ca-  " she interrupted me saying that if she doesn't get him something where all her relatives and family members are there, it would look bad. I always thought this part of her where she cares too much about what people thought was her weakness. Like it can get into her head too much to the point it affects her actions. And I always feared that this would affect our friendship cus i-

"Are you listening to me Alex?" The road was on red lights and she was completely looking at me with a raised eyebrow.

"Uhm ya totally" she didn't seem convinced so I continued.

"You were saying that if you do give him a gift you would feel like you wasted your money and if you don't get him anything your afraid you will get judged by you family"  i said in one breath making me take a huge breath in.

"Okay so...."i paused thinking that If it were me I probably wouldn't get him anything but I knew that answer won't suffice for her so instead I suggested

"Well just get him something cheap but not to cheap you know. Like a vase or like a wine you know just simple things." She seemed like she liked the idea.

"Your right, I will do that" she seemed relieved like something stressing her was finally fixed. I didn't understand her sometimes. I mean she is not rich but she had enough money not to worry about trivial things like this so I wasn't sure that the money was the real issue so I decided to ask cus I don't like to guess and keep things like this to myself. It makes me feel guilty and makes me overthink.

"Why are you worried about money thou? Is that really the issue?" I asked cautiously.

"I honestly don't know. You know how easily I get stressed about this things." Ya sometimes she can be chill and relaxed and sometimes very stressed out and the other days she is just very careless. I'm very glad she is not the kind of person that is always stressed cus with my issues and hers together I don't know how it would have worked out.

I value our friendship so much. Sometimes I know I take it for granted when I'm at my lowest. I push her away again and again but she just never let me. I remembered one time I had one of those moments and said that we should just end this friendship cus she deserved this and that and i wasn't this and that. She just looked at me and walked out of my apartment.

 I remembered my heart dropping at that. Thinking that was it. She finally had enough. I felt so sad thinking I lost her forever like I couldn't fix it but then she was at my kitchen the next morning cooking breakfast for me. She said goodmorning and kept talking about my behavior the previous day and how I should really learn how to speak to my elders and she kept on talking on how she was older than me by 2 months while I was standing by the corridor just frozen shocked . I think I surprised her that day when I hugged her tight from the back but she still turned around and hugged me back as tightly saying she would never leave me no matter how hard I try so I should just accept that fact. 

I almost cried that day. Almost. Although lex would tell you a totally different story on how I cried. Which obviously is a complete bull if you ask me. That girl and her imaginations I swear.

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