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Twice 2yeon "Never be ok." Part 2

TRIGGER WARNING;

SUICIDE

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*Nayeon pov*

I'm done. I can't take this. Momo said I would be ok, but I won't be. I can't live without Jeongyeon and I'm sure she wouldn't like what I was going to do, but she will be happy to see me again after this terrible month apart.

A week ago, Momo took me out for a walk at this park that had a big bridge above a shallow river. That was her mistake for bring me. Since then, I've had the plan. Momo finally went back to her own home yesterday because I've been trying to seem like I'm getting better, I'm not though. It's all just a plan, I act ok so she can go home, and I can be alone so I can go to the bridge and end my life.

"I'm sorry, I can't take this anymore. I'll never be ok. I cannot live without Jeongyeon. I'm suffering too much. I love you all, and I'm sorry for leaving you all behind in this cruel world. 

This is nobody's fault but my own, I loved her too much so don't blame yourself.

~Nayeon"

Thats what I wrote on the tear-stained piece of paper in front of me. I wiped my tears and put the paper at the foot of me and Jeongyeons bed.

Then I left. I left the home that me and the love of my life once shared. We made so many amazing memories here, and of course some bad ones too. But I know this is what I have to do. I have to end it.

I drove my car to the park and once I got there, I walked to the bridge. My heart started to race as I made my way to the center. But I had no regrets. This is what has to be done. I stood up on the railing and looked down at the far drop into the shallow water. I can literally see the bottom. 

"Nayeon don't!" I wouldn't have looked back, but the voice was the voice of someone who wasn't here anymore. I was sure I was going crazy. I looked to my side. It was all woods and there was a trail. At the entrance of the trail which wasn't too far from where I was standing, was her. She was standing there. How? 

"Nayeon please!" She yelled and started running towards me on the bridge. I only turned my head to look at her, I didn't move a muscle. I was afraid too and I didn't know why. 

Finally, she made it to the bridge and stood behind me. I didn't turn around though, I still just stood there looking at the water below me. 

"Please. This isn't the answer. Your supposed to live a long and healthy life. Don't end it because of me. Please?" She begged and I heard the sobs in her voice.

"I don't want to live a long life if it's not with you. It's a waste of time" I said as the tears I shed earlier had returned.

"I know your hurting, but you'll get better soon. You will find someone who makes you feel so much better than I ever could. Someone who treats you better than I did. And someone who doesn't lie to you like I did. Someone who won't make you hate her because she's dying."

"I'll never feel better! And I'll never find someone who's better than you! You are the only person I've ever loved, and the only one I'll ever love!" I raised my voice, still not turning around.

"Please. You're hurting me. Live"

I sighed deeply and shook my head.

"No. You hurt me to, so I guess where even now, right?" I said and went to turn around to take one last look at her. But I couldn't. As I turned, my foot slipped off the railing and I fell headfirst.

I hit hard and that's all I remember. I felt a strong pain, but it went away very quickly. Everything was black for a second. Then I opened my eyes. I was an all-white room, laying on a bed. Jeongyeon was sitting at the foot of it with her back faced towards me. She looked back and seen me awake and smiled. I smiled back before she came over to me and gave me a kiss on my lips before she spoke.

"I'm glad we can be together again. Finally, nothing can separate us again."

I smiled and sat up.

"You still shouldn't have done that though."

"I'm glad I did. Because were finally together again"