Once again.

7

Warning there might be some triggering stuff you have been warned about. 

Yeosang's POV:

What did he mean by that?

 I think as I walk into the apartment.

"You are selling yourself for cheap now?" his words echo in my head.

 I didn't;

 He was the one who came to me, you don't know anything, Jongho. And I know you don't care either.

"Hyung, wait," he calls me from behind, Following me into the room.

"Hyung, I was just joking."

"Joking?"

"That's right, all this is a joke, so laugh it off and let's move on, right?" I say, closing the door in his face.

For a moment, while Jongho was punching him and dragging me with him, I thought he was worried as he cared about me, but I was wrong.

And why the hell did that asshole decide to show up today?

 I was shocked when I got his message.

When I went downstairs, he hugged me, it felt so disgusting, and suffocating, and took me back to my high school days.

"I missed you so much," He said and breathed in my neck.

"You smell so nice, just like back in the day, remember? 

"When you used to come to my house after school. And, we used to..."

"What do you want, Dal?"

"Why so mean sweety? Come here, kiss me for old-time sake." He said roughly, holding my waist, I wanted to punch him, but my body failed miserably. My breathing quickened, and I closed my eyes.

Just then, Jongho came, and. "Yeosang?" Wooyoung calls out for me, interrupting my flashback. I didn't notice that he was in the room,  gave him my fake smile, and rushed to the bathroom.

Why did he have to show up and ruin everything?

 I feel my phone buss, and I get a video from Dal, I should have blocked him. 

I click on it and intently regret it. The voice that was coming from it was mine it's from that night...

I smack the phone into the ground as tears start streaming from my eyes nonstop.

Why?

It all comes back to me. And I feel my stomach turn, I walk to the toilet open it up and throw up, I quickly get up feeling disgusted in my skin I almost tear off my clothes and impatiently switch on the water and start scrubbing myself with shaky hands While my eyes kept producing tears.

Filthy so Filthy.

While I was getting dressed, I noticed how harshly I had scrubbed. My whole skin was red with slight brushes. I then just go to bed, I was so exhausted from crying, I couldn't even keep my eyes open.

Luckily, I drifted off to sleep.

"Hey, what are you doing? hold him down,"

"Open it wide, Sangha, and watch your teeth."

"He saved him for me too." Dal's voice makes my ears bleed.

I quickly wake up, sweat dripping down my forehead.

"Hyung, are you okay?"  I hear Jongho, and I relax a bit.

I am safe.

He switches on the light and hands me some water, " What are you doing here?" I ask.

" I asked Woo Hyung to switch with me. cuz I wanted to apologize,"

He says, sitting near me.

"Jongho, I'm fine; go back to sleep," I say, and he does just that.

I take a deep breath in.

I like this about him. 

He at least listens. Although, everyone says, that he only listens to me. I don't think so.

I mean, why would he?

After that, I couldn't sleep one bit.

And right now, I'm in the directors' offices. He called Jongho and me.

"Listen, guys, we are doing great at the moment, but I would like to point out one thing, that you guys should do a bit more."

" I mean a bit more skinship. Fans love that, and our ship Jongsang is not sailing," he says.

We both look at him and nod.

"Look, I'm not saying to do something that makes you uncomfortable, but just little gestures to show how you feel about each other, that's all."

It's always like this.

Jongho doesn't like to show affection, that's his way, and I respect that. As for me, I'm not a fan of it (skinship) either.

"You are right, sir," I hear Jongho say, which makes me look at him.

"I promise you that from now on, from Ateez, the best and most searched ship will be Jongsang and not Woosan." He says with a determination that's kind of scary.

"That's what I'm talking about. My pirate let the ship sail," the director says dramatically.

I give them a small smile.

"You just wait and watch, sir. I'll show the whole world how much I love him," he says, and the last part didn't sound like he was joking.

Don't overthink it, Yeosang.

He held my hand, and we walked out, and I swear, I saw directed nim jump in his seat excited like a school girl.

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