What if.....(Ateez Wooyoung)

4

"It's okay. You can do it!" I encouraged myself for the one last time and enter the lecture room.
"Lee Mirae?"
"It's you!" A girl smiled and took her place beside me, " Thanks god, there is at least one person I know."
" Oh , I can sit with you, right?" She continued.
I nodded at her. We went to the same high school. Her name is Yejin. We were not really close as we were in different classes but we knew each other.
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" so you spent your day with yejin?" Wooyoung asked on the phone.
" yes," I answered, " I didn't know she would be that fun to hang out with."
" so, how's your day?" I asked.
"Fine, as I am in same class with San, I already had a friend." He continued, " and we got a new friend, named Kang yeosang."
And we continue to chat a little more before we hang up.
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Six months later,
" sorry, I am late," wooyoung sat down in front of me and took a sip of my caramel latte.
" it's fine," I said, " why did you ask me to meet you so suddenly ? Is there any problem?"
" mirae, " he fixed his posture and stared my eyes. " I have something important to tell you."
" yes?"
" You may think this is so sudden and I am telling you this without thinking much, but it's not true. I have thought about this very carefully and although there are probabilities that you may hate me, I can't help myself but to tell you this."
" you are scaring me wooyoung," I exclaimed, " what is it ?"
" I love you"
He said. " more than a friend. I love you and I want you as mine."
I thought the whole world stopped at the moment.
My heart was beating so fast, my hands were trembling .
I'm sure I even stopped breathing or blinking for a split second.
" mirae?" He called, " are u mad?"
" what?" I came back, " No, no."
I continued, " but isn't it too sudden? Don't tell me you woke up one morning and decided to be in love with me."
He sighed, " to be honest, even I'm not sure how it all started but when I realized, I'm already in love."
He continued, " I tried to control my feelings . I don't want to ruin our friendship. But as we do not get to spend time together as much as we did before, my urge to see your face and hear your voice is growing stronger and stronger."
"Mirae, I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable."
I smiled to myself. Finally, the Jung wooyoung, I've been crushing for years is confessing me.
I replied, " are you sure? You do realize that we can't turn back once we started,right?"
" I can't be more sure." He answered.
" okay," I said, "I will be your girlfriend."
Oh, I can't wait to call and tell San .
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This whole relationship thing with wooyoung was all fun. I was literally on cloud nine. All of our friends supported us. Also, he is so sweet and caring. A perfect boyfriend I can imagine.
Until it all gone wrong;
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" I said go change your outfit or else we will not go out," he told me sternly.
" why? There's nothing wrong ,"I complained.
He argued back, " you pant is too short."
"It's not. It's just above my knee. It's in the middle of summer. Come on,wooyoung."
"No," he shook his head.
I sighed and gave up, changing my outfit to what he would be satisfied.
" That's my good girl." He ruffled my hair, " now, let's go. The movie is going to start in twenty minutes."
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" why didn't you pick up my phone?" He yelled me through the phone.
" I'm sorry. I was busy." I apologized.
" don't lie to me. I know it was your break time."
" yes, it was," I explained, " but I had a group assignment which needed to be discussed with my friends , so,"
" Oh, so do you mean you couldn't pick up my phone because you were busy with your new friends?" He argued.
"What? No. You are misunderstanding." I tried to explain but cut off by him.
" You know what? It's fine. Just stay with your friends." And he hung up.
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" so he didn't even text you?" yejin asked me in shock.
I nodded.
" wow, he's a j**k," yejin said, "don't you dare contact him first."
" but, " I tried to talk.
" but what?" Yejin scolded, " you always apologize first whenever you guys fought and see, how it turns out?"
" he's just a little childish," I said, " I will just call him first. It's not a big deal."
" it's not about who call who first," yejin sighed, " You will never understand. You are too blindly in love."
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" are you okay?" San asked me.
I sighed, " I am not sure."
We are now sitting in my living room, after having dinner together.
Oh, I forgot to mention that we are neighbors and we always hang out at each other's house.
" did you guys fight again?" He asked.
"Sannie," I called him, " I don't know where have I done wrong?"
He nodded, signaling me to continue.
I told him about every arguments we had in our one year of relationship, I meant as much as I can remember.
" and since then, whenever we fought, he ignored me until I apologize, sometimes for days." I said, " most of the times, I didn't even know why he got so mad. He just got mad and ignored me."
San took a deep breath, "why didn't you tell me about this before?"
" because," I replied, " they were just some small arguments and I don't want to annoy you with those unimportant things."
"They may just be some small arguments but how you are feeling is not unimportant." He explained, " have you tried talking to him? About how you feel or how you dislike his silent treatments."
I shook my head.
" you should," San continued.
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