What if.....(Ateez Wooyoung)

5

I ran and hugged wooyoung.
" why didn't you tell me that you are coming to pick me up?" I clinged onto his arm.
" oh , so that you could hide that little guy you were talking with?" He sassed.
" what?" I said, " no, he's just a friend."
" oh, then tell me what important business you need to discuss with that FRIEND of yours even after class?"
"No," I answered, " he's just asking me about the assignment."
" then why haven't I heard about him before? I thought I knew all of your friends." He said, " care to explain me about what do you want to hide?"
" what do you mean hide?" I argued back, "He isn't even that close with me. We just share a class."
He seemed furious.
" come on," I took his hand in both of mine, " don't be jealous. Did you see the guy standing beside him? That's his boyfriend. He's not hitting on me. There's nothing to get jealous."
" so you are telling me that I am making a big deal out of nothing, huh?" He shrugged my hands off, " forget it. It's my fault that I decided to come pick you up."
He left, leaving me alone .
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After two weeks,
"I'm sorry. Please don't give me silent treatment anymore." I apologized.
" So, you finally realize what you did was wrong, huh?" He mocked.
" I am sorry. It's been two weeks you are ignoring me . You didn't even reply my text or pick up my phone."
" then you should have come in person sooner," he said, " like right now."
" That was your punishment for hiding things from me."
I just lowered my head.
He lift my chin with his index, " it's okay. You are forgiven now."
He pulled me into his embrace, " you are so lucky that I love you so much.I miss you."
" I miss you too," I said.
" I was waiting for you," he said, " you should have apologized to me sooner . What took you so long, huh?"
He continued, " but it's all okay now. You are now in my embrace and that's all we need."
He kissed my forehead, " I love you, Mirae."
But why can't I feel that love anymore?
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I am now at the school festival of wooyoung's.
"This is yeosang, I'm always talking about."
" Hi! I am mirae."
" I know," he smiled, " I have heard a lot about you."
He is now busy with doing something I don't understand ,with his friends and I am stuck beside San.
" who's that girl?" I pointed to the girl, who is laughing together with wooyoung, slapping his shoulder slightly.
" She is Yeri, the beauty queen of our department," San answered.
" no wonder she's so beautiful," I mumbled, "They seem pretty close."
San shrugged his shoulders.
Why am I having this uneasy feelings?
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" he's the one who was late to your date and he's also the one who got mad?" Yejin raised her voice in disbelief, " wow, he's unbelievable."
" but it was my fault tho," I said, "I should have understood him."
" what do you mean you should have understood?" Yejin said, "he's late because he forgot about the date ,as he was busy spending time with his friend , named what? Harris? Aeri?"
" Yeri," I corrected, "he said that she was having a hard time and needed him. That's why he was with her."
" yes," yejin said, " instead of coming to the dinner to celebrate your two years anniversary."
Yejin continued, " and all you did was, asking him if there was anything wrong with that girl and he got mad, saying you are not understanding. You think you are still at the fault?"
I sighed, " to be honest, I don't know," I continued, " but I'll just apologize. If not,..."
I stopped. Because I don't even dare to think about what will happen if I don't apologize.
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wooyoung and me, cuddling, watching whatever is showing on TV.
I love these moments.
The moments where I don't need to worry if I would make him mad, or if I am going to say something wrong: The moment where I can just stay with ease around him.
"Mirae yah," he called my name while stroking my hair.
I hummed as a response.
"I am thinking," he said, " what if I drop out of school?"
I turned around to face him.
He sighed, " I always feel like," he pushed his hair back, " just ,this whole university thing ,is not for me, you know?" He continued, " I want to do something, something which will fit me, instead of wasting time on studying things which I am not even interested."
I smiled and took his hand, " then, do it."
" Do you think this is a good idea?" He asked, " I meant what if I made a wrong decision?"
"I don't know. But whatever happens, I'll be with you. So, don't be afraid and do whatever you feel like. I believe you."
He hugged me, " Thank you mirae. I love you."
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" Yes, it was the topic. Study that first and you will find it easier when you do the assignment." I am on the phone with one of my friends, " yeah, it's fine. See you. Bye"
" who is that?" Wooyoung asked.
"Oh, just my friend."
" friend , who?" He raised his eyebrow, " I didn't know you have that many male friends."
" I've told you about him. Henry,my classmate," I continued, " he's just asking me about the topic which was taught last week since he couldn't make to the class."
I explained before he got mad.
" Don't tell me you are the only student who attended that class. Why can't he just ask others?" He fumed, " are you sure you are just a friend for him too?"
"Wooyoung," I sighed, " he's a friend. Don't assume everyone is taking an interest in me. I can have male friends too, you know? You also have other female friends."
He held both of his hands up," now you are accusing me back, huh?"
" what?" I got confused, " I didn't accuse you of anything."
" oh, stop it. It's clear that you are accusing me of cheating with my female friends."
" I am not. I am just saying," I sighed. " I didn't mean it like that, wooyoung. But if it sounded like I was accusing you, I'm sorry."
" you should," he snapped, " don't you ever dare to accuse me of cheating."
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Two months later,
" what kind of boyfriend ignores his girlfriend for two whole months?"Yejin got angry.
"He's not ignoring me," I murmured, " at least he replied my texts."
"  He doesn't pick up your calls. He doesn't come to see you. He refuses to go on a date, saying he is busy."
Yejin scolded, "Don't tell me that at least he replies your texts. The texts you sent in the early morning are replied at midnight. That is not counted."
She continued, " are you sure he doesn't have another girl?"
I shook my head.
To be honest, although he said he's busy, I saw him and his friend, yeri, commenting and replying on each other's social media.
And I don't feel good about that.
But I am too scared to ask him.
And he, himself said not to accuse him of cheating.
I should trust him.
Love is all about trust , so I should trust him.
It's all my overthinking. He will never do that to me.
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