Benefits With My Butler [NaLu:Fairytail Fanfiction]

CHAPTER #39

a/n: Thank you so much for waiting for me to update this book. I'm really sorry it took me so long to update. I probably post another author's note for you to be informed about what happened to me this past months. 

Anyway, I just you guys to know, that I'm not fully recovered for all the stressed that I experience this past months. But, I will try to update each book every week (I hope I can), as much as possible. 

Once again, Thank you so much for waiting. 

Khiegilsan

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LUCY'S POV

I CAN hear noise but I can't figure out what they meant. Then I heard a familiar sound... a sound that... killed us. I can hear it, maybe they're still shooting us, making sure that we are both dead. How cruel can that be?

We have dreams that we haven't achieved yet. We plan for our future family. But, everything vanishes because of someone... someone who doesn't want to let go.

My eyes blurry – I can see anything but I know, I'm still in Natsu's arms. I can't feel that excruciating pain. Is this what dying feels like? I can't feel any pain... so maybe...

Yes! This is what it feels like.

I felt that my body lift. I started to panic. They're going to separate us. I can't... I can't be away from him. I tried to fight the heavy weight of darkness that is surrounding me but I can't.

"Natsu..."

I love you.

NATSU'S POV

I CAN still feel the pain... but it can't compete with the pain I feel in my heart. I failed to save her... I failed to protect her. What's hurt the most is that we tried so hard. We strive for a happy life.

But it's still not enough. Most people will probably think how foolish our decision was. That way, we can live our life without each other. How can you say you are alive if you are not happy with the decision you made? We strive in this cruel world to be happy not to be miserable. And choosing a life without the woman I love is hell. I never know that it will hurt this much.

It hurts when you almost grasp the future you want but it was suddenly taken away from you. Like you don't deserve the future you want.

"Damn it!" I heard someone say, I felt my eyelids flutter. I slowly open my eyes and I can see my brother's face. Right! I have a family that I disappoint because of my foolish decision. Decision that I'll never regret "You can't die, do you understand?" I heard him shout.

I tried to answer him. To ask him what happened to my wife. I can still feel it. I can still feel the pain that I know she wasn't in my arms anymore.

"You have a wound in your back. Can you still feel anything?" he asked me. I nod, hoping that he will notice my response.

I never see my brother like this. Like he's in too much pain. I can see the water in his eyes but I know he controls himself. My brother was always in control of his feelings, but not this moment. I wanted to apologize to him, I tried to smile at him which made his eyes widen as if he understood what I meant.

After all, he's my twin brother. He knew what I'm thinking. He shook his head as he gave orders to someone. I was put in an ambulance. My brother acted immediately, he put devices that I knew would help to keep me alive. I was hoping that they would move to the nearest hospital but we didn't. It almost looks like we are waiting for something then realization hits me.