Benefits With My Butler [NaLu:Fairytail Fanfiction]

CHAPTER #38

LUCY's POV

IT'S BEEN three hours since I discovered about me being pregnant. We've been waiting for this news. I should be happy. We should be happy about this news because finally... finally we have a new member of our little family. But... I couldn't bring myself to be happy. I know I shouldn't feel this way. I should be happy but... but... how can I be happy in this situation. My life is in danger... even my husband's life. How can we be happy?

Will we lose our child again? No matter what I thought I did not know how to save our baby in my womb.

I looked at him. And I know there is a trace of concern on my face... a concern for our child. I saw an emotion that I'm very familiar with. A determination to sacrifice. I close my eyes then bit my lower lips to stop myself from sobbing. Did we deserve this?

We both want to have a happy family but why God keeps on doing this us? Why he kept on trying to torn us apart? Is the six years gap is not enough?

"Lucy" I look at him helplessly "Everything will be fine, I promise" he said

I opened my mouth to tell him not to pursue what he had in mind but... the words I wanted to say did not come out of my mouth. I'm being torn between the life of our child and his life.

"Please..." I sob "Please don't leave me" I saw his eyes wide open as he look at me.

Tears suddenly fall into my eyes when he looked away "I won't." I know he was lying... my heart is telling me that he will sacrifice himself for us to be safe.

He was soon able to free himself from bondage. He immediately removed the straps on my hand and ankle. Afterwards, he helped me to my feet. When we got out of the room where we were locked up he immediately spoke. "You will be fine" he said that gently. Maybe he was trying to make me feel better.

But ... I can't be calm knowing that he wants to do something.

"I know. And you won't leave me, do you understand? Whatever is on your mind? Please do not continue" I say when I finally had the courage to speak.

He did not answer and we just continued walking. For a moment we stopped walking to see if anyone had followed our guards. I do not know where the exit. But we must find it as soon as possible before those bastard notice that we're not on the room. I listened hard for any sign of movements.

My eyes got widen when I heard the guards shouting about our disappearance. I look at him helplessly – I open my mouth to say something but he just cover my mouth "You can leave me, Lucy. I will stay and try to get their attention"

I shook my head and as I wrapped my arms around his shoulder and help him to walk. We need to get out of this place as soon as possible.

"Lucy..."

"Stop it!" I say.

"Save our baby, Lucy" I shook my head as tears started to fall in my eyes. I almost shouted with relief when I found the exits. I held him tight "Lucy—"

"I can't leave you!" I say emphasizing my words "I can't save myself and the baby. I'm a selfish person. I know you know that. You are very familiar on how selfish I am. So please stop saying to leave you because I can't. I don't want to lose you"

"I don't want to lose you and the baby" he said gently.

I cried even more at what he said. I do not know why it should lead to this. Can't we just be happy?

"I don't think I can be a good mother without you, Natsu. I don't think I will have enough soul in me to continue to live if something happen to you. If there's no hope. If this is the end, Natsu. I will die with you."

I can see on his eyes that he is against on what I've said then realization and understanding. But that's the truth. What's the point of escaping in this place alone? I can't continue to live without him by my side.

Love have a different faces. And there are millions of way on how to love. The kind of love that we have is one of them. We can't live without each other, just living won't be enough.

I know it's wrong. I know I should fight for my life because of the baby. That I should always put our baby on top of priority. But I just can't. I'm not planning on giving up but if there is no way at all for him to live with me. That's the moment that I will let everything fall.

I have a future... and that is to be with him and our baby.

But if it will end for him... then it will end for me too because he's connected in my future and without him.

...

...

Everything will all vanish.

We were stunned to walk when suddenly Lisanna's staff came out. We immediately turned around and pointed their guns. I felt Natsu tighten his grip on my waist. I did not look at her and I just looked at the woman why we are here in this situation.

The woman smiled at me "How are you, Lucy Heartfilia? This is probably our second meeting since you took my boyfriend from me."

"I don't remember taking anything from you, Lisanna" I replied firmly.

She laugh "I heard to Ellie that you are pregnant" she said. Obviously she's ignoring what I've said. "I can let you escape this place, Lucy Heartfilia. If you will leave Natsu here with me"

I look at my husband on my side before I turned my head to look at this bitch "Stop hallucinating that I will my husband with you" I said emphasizing the word husband "Stop hallucinating that Natsu will love you!" I shouted.

"You selfish bitch!" she curse as she pointed her gun to me. Natsu immediately step forward to cover my body "Natsu? Why? Why can't you love, again?"

"I did you loved you before, Lisanna. That's the truth. But I just can't teach myself to love you again because I can't. I love this woman beside me."

"If you can't be with me. Then you shall die"

I couldn't hear what she said because Natsu cover my ears then kiss my forehead. I saw his mouthed the word 'I love you' and 'I'm sorry'

I smile as tears keep on streaming down on my eyes. I guess this is the end – I slowly wrapped my arms around his shoulder as rested my head on his chest where I can feel his heart beating "It's not your fault. This is just the way it supposed to happen. I love you, Natsu. Let's find each other again, okay." I bit my lower lips before looking up to him and smile "Promise me that you'll find me again"

"I will... I will always find you" he said before kissing my lips.

I felt the heat then followed by the pain. I felt Natsu's body bucked with the impact when the bullet penetrate his body. I know mine did too. I lost count... two... three... or four bullet.

I can't hear anything anymore. I can barely see Natsu but I can still feel his arms on mine. 

This might be the end for us..

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but for sure we will meet again.

KHIEGILSAN

A/n: The next chapter will be uploaded once I finished the entire book offline. I'm not sure what date but surely it will happened next year. Anyway I hope you enjoy reading this book until this Chapter. 

I hope to have you a very good holiday. And I just want to congratulate each one of you that we survive the whole year of 2020 despite the fact that everything is not normal. 

See you next year ^_^ 

Love yah all, 

Khiegilsan