Bellatrix Black x one shots

I will always be here

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˓ I will always be here ˒

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[1145]

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« losing someone important »
« panic attack »
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I went back home and closed the door behind me. I saw Bella sitting in our living room. I looked at her for a few seconds but at the same time it was like I wasn't even seeing her. I felt like everything around was not real.

"Hey baby what's wrong?" she said, but I turned around to make my way to the bedroom.

"Y/n what happened?" she grabbed my wrist and turned me to face her. Finally at that moment I realized she was here. She looked at me with wide eyes as she saw I was crying. I could tell I was looking like a dead person.

"Did someone hurt you?" she asked, but I shook my head looking at the floor. She took my hand and I walked with her into the living room. We both sat on the couch, but I was only looking at the fireplace. Her hand was still over mine.

"Please tell me what happened" once again I only shook my head. I was feeling tears in my eyes, but I didn't want them to fall.

"Y/n-"

"No, no I can't-" I stopped her before she could say anything more and stood up from the couch to not look at her. I was breathing heavily, I couldn't hold it anymore. I collapsed on the floor, crying hysterically.

In the next moment I felt Bellatrix kneeling behind me and trying to took my hands from my face. I was shaking and crying, trying to catch my breath but I couldn't.

"Hey, calm down and breathe" she said, holding my hands in hers, I squeezed my eyes shut hardly but I still couldn't stop the tears escaping my eyes. Bella was talking to me, but I could hardly hear and understand her words.

"Breathe with me, it's okay" was the only thing I heard. She hugged me tightly from the back. I slowly started to breath more normally as I followed her breathing.

"I'm here, see?" she said as she grabbed my hands tighter "Y/n, please squeeze my hands darling."

As she said, I squeezed her hands, still shaking.

"See, I'm here with you, nothing is gonna hurt you, you're safe in my arms" she said and stroked my hands with her thumbs.

As I calmed down and stopped crying, she took me by my waist and sat me on her lap. I still had tears in my eyes.

"My sweet baby, come here" she hugged me tightly, I hugged her back like I was holding onto her for a dear life. I hid my face in the crook of her neck, still sobbing from time to time. She stroked my cheeks and wiped away my tears.

"Please, look at me kitten" she said and turned me by my jawline to look at her face. She was still stroking my cheek, holding my waist tightly by other arm.

"You know you have to tell me" she looked deeply into my eyes. I desperately shook my head, tears streaming down my face again, she fastly wiped them up. She already knew what happened, but still wanted me to say it.

"You have to, baby. You have to say it out loud to believe it yourself."

I let out a loud breath and looked down at my hands which started to shake again.

"M-my mom. She's dead" my lips started to tremble. I didn't think much and immediately snuggled into her chest. Again warm tears were streaming down my face. Bella's hands closed around me stroking my back.

"Shhh I'm here with you my baby girl, I'm here."

After few minutes I was able to finally take my face away from her chest to look at her. Bellatrix's hands fastly found their way to my cheeks, stroking them gently. She tucked my hair behind my ears.

"I'm so sorry sweetheart..." she put her hand over mine, still shaking.

"I- I can't do this-" I was desperately shaking my head.

"You can my darling, you're stronger than you think-"

"N- no, you don't u- understand... my mom and you w- were my only family. The only peoples I l- loved and cared about. And they cared about me. Now I have only you, I can't lose you..." I was choking with my heavy tears.

"Kitten you won't lose me, I promise you I will never leave you."

I don't deserve you, I thought.

I can't lose you, I'm scared.

I don't want to be alone.

"Hey don't think about it right now. Or ever" she took my face in her hands. "It's not gonna happen, You'll never be alone baby. You've had enough for today, right? Right now I'm here and nothing's gonna change that, my sweet girl."

"I'm scared. It hurts" I said and snuggled closer to her, her soft cold cheek touching mine.

"I know I'm not able to understand what you feel, but I will be always here for you" she kissed the tip of my nose.

"I also can't take all the pain from you, I wish I could. You are the one person who can do that. But you need time for that" she looked at me from the side. A single tear escaped my eye, Bella kissed it softly and pulled my head to the crook of her neck.

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After few minutes she took me up in a bridal style and started to walk upstairs.

"Bells what are you-" I said with a weak voice.

"Shhh" she kissed my forehead without saying anything.

Soon we were in our bedroom, she laid me gently on the bed. As she started to walk away I grabbed her hand.

"Please don't go."

"Don't worry, I'll just take some pajama from the drawer."

I nodded and watched as she walked to the drawer. After a while she put on the bed a pair of comfortable shorts and a t-shirt.

"Can I?" she asked pointing at my sweater. I nodded and she helped me to change the clothes. After that she also changed into her pajama. We both laid under the covers, I snuggled into her chest. Her warm arms embraced me tightly.

"Are you feeling any better?" she said quietly into my ear, then looked at me and brushed away the hair from my face.

"Actually not really... but I'm glad you're here. Because If you weren't... I probably wouldn't be here anymore" I answered with glossy eyes.

"Oh, my sweet baby girl..." she pressed my head into her chest again, kissing my forehead.

"You should sleep now darling. And don't worry, when you'll wake up I'm gonna be here next to you, I'm not going anywhere. I will always be here whenever you need me" she stroked my hair gently. I nodded lightly and hugged her waist tighter.

"Goodnight, my pretty girl" she said and kissed my cheek.

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autor's note:

hi y'all!
so it's my first chapter, I hope you enjoyed it! let me know in the comments what you think <3

-V