Bellatrix Black x one shots

Only love can save us

15.
˓ Only love can save us ˒

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(only mentions, but still)
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When you lose someone important, usually you can't even describe what you feel. It's not just sadness. It can be also emptiness or rage. But for Bellatrix, it was a mix of all feelings, which were breaking her from the inside.

She always used to say she didn't have a soul, but that day I clearly saw it in her, hidden deep inside.

I always knew how strong was her relationship with Narcissa. Even if they didn't always agree, they were there for each other, no matter what.

When Bellatrix heard about Narcissa's death, something completely broke inside her. And all of her explosions were nothing in comparison with that day.

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When we came back home, she went straight away to our room, slamming the door. I knew I should give her time alone, but I couldn't listen her throwing everything around anymore.

As I was walking closer to our bedroom, I heard another glass being slammed. And I exactly knew it will be harder to save her than all of the times before.

Save her from the darkness.

I knocked on the door before opening them. Not even second later another glass was thrown into the wall, right next to my head. She stopped for a moment, breathing heavily as her chest was raising up and down. She was in agony, only wanting to destroy everything.

"Get out" she hissed underneath her breath, giving me a death look.

"No. I'm not gonna leave you" I said, trying to not let my voice break.

"Someone told me this before. Now she's dead" she said coldly, walking to another direction of the room.

"Bellatrix, please-"

"He knew what he was doing. He wanted me to become a monster" she said, throwing some books from the shelf. "So that's what he's gonna get."

"That's exactly what you can't do. You can't show him he won. He did this on purpose, expecting you to break, to let the darkness consume you..." I said, walking closer to her. "But it's not who you are. I know you, your good side-"

"My good side?" she grabbed me by my throat, pressing knife to my throat which was probably hidden in her dress. I didn't want to show I was scared, but uncontrollably I shut my eyes closed for a moment. Her knife under my throat was like a promise, which was just waiting to be completed. "I don't have a soul. And especially a good side" she hissed, tightening her grip.

"So why I'm still a- alive?" I asked, hardly trying to form my words because of her grip. "If you don't have a soul, then I should be dead already, shouldn't I?"

Her grip tightened even more, making my vision go blurry. I knew I was walking on a thin ice, but it was the only way to switch something in her.

In the next moment she threw the knife away, walking back till she hit the wall and slid down, burying her face in her hands. I staggered a bit, trying to find my balance and catch my breath.

I kneeled down next to her, carefully trying to touch her shoulder.

"Go away" she said, shifting a bit, still with her face hidden in her hands. "You should be scared of me."

"I know you want to push everyone away, so they would leave you, because that's what you're used to... but I won't do this" I said quietly. "I won't ever be scared of someone I love. Because you're not a monster, you're just hurt. And if he thinks he can make you heartless, he's wrong. You can say what you want, but you have a heart, Bella. I am an example of this. And with every second I'm still in this room, I'm proving you I'm right. Please, don't push me away, Bella..." I said, touching lightly her arm.

When she finally lifted up her head, she had tears in her eyes. Eyes which looked like an eyes of a fallen angel.

"Just trust me. Let me in" I whispered, nodding my head, moving closer to her.

After a while which seemed to be a moment of hesitation, she snuggled into my chest, hugging me tightly. I closed her in my embrace, pulling her closer.

"It's alright, let it go" I whispered, stroking the back of her head.

It seemed like all of her boundaries and walls crushed down as she started to cry. Bellatrix Black, started to cry, in my arms. Exposing every inch of her. All of this time, she was holding her feelings inside, til this moment.

All of the feelings were washing over her as she broke completely in my arms. The guilt, shame, sadness and rage - it all got free with those waterfalls of tears.

She clinged on me like a little child, never wanting to let go. Like someone who's always left for someone else, so they want to extend the last moment before being left alone again.

Soon she was choking with her own tears, crying like never before. Her heart was aching with every sob. The sadness was consuming her more and more, as she was letting it to her, after pushing it away all the time.

"I'm here, just breathe with me... I'm not going anywhere" I said with my face buried in her black soft curls, holding her as close as never. I knew I couldn't do anything to make her pain go away, but just to offer her my presence.

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I don't really know how much time she stayed crying in my arms, but she finally decided to pull away, looking at me with red and puffy eyes.

"She's really gone..." she whispered, her lips still trembling from crying. I nodded sadly, pulling her head closer to my chest, gently stroking her cheek.

"Please just... don't leave me. That's all I'm asking for, if someone like me can even ask for something..." she said with a breaking voice.

"I will never leave you..." I answered with soft voice. I didn't even realize I started to cry myself untill Bellatrix pulled away as she felt my own tears on her skin.

"Don't... don't cry. I never deserve a single tear from your eyes..." she said with a weak voice, wiping away my tears.

And oh, how this broke me even more...

"My tears are never wasted when they are for you, Bells... you're my everything and I'm not gonna let you think you're a bad person" I said, cupping her face in my shaky hands. "And if someone thinks you're heartless, it's because they never experienced to be loved by you, because they don't deserve it. But I've experienced love from you many times and I think it's the most beautiful feeling in this world" I said through the tears.

"You're the only thing that keeps me from going insane... from the darkness" she said with closed eyes, letting few more tears to fall down.

"And I won't give up on you. Everyone made you think showing emotions is weakness, but it's not. Love is the only think we have which Voldemort doesn't. He doesn't believe in love, but it's the most powerful thing which any spell can break. Only love can save us... we can save each other" I said, kissing her forehead.

"You already saved me."

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autor's note:
I haven't plan at first to post today, but here I am :)
I think it's one of my most emotional chapters, but actually I pretty like it.
Sorry for all of you who loves Narcissa (actually can someone not love her?), though I hope it wasn't too much for you, I tried to not really focus on her 'death' but Bellatrix's feelings.

btw thank you so much for 2k views!<3
I might have some surprise for you, but I need to sort things out and complete everything, so I guess you have to still wait a little bit, but I'm trying my best :)

xx,
-V