Cycle: Kai Anderson x Reader

Safety: Chapter II

TW: sexual nightmare, attempted sexual assault, possible sexism?

You don't understand how lucky you are to be safe
you realise it in the worse times

Graffiti with inappropriate words and jokes covered the walls, trashed laced the floor, bugs flew in the air. This was horrible, there was a dumpster. William would find us if we went in, and it would be too loud but we only heard his footsteps grow louder and the tension rise. I've always liked adrenaline but know I don't understand how I liked it. The girl signalled to come to her, and pointed behind the dumpster and the wall. The walls had spider webs and a dangerously big spider on the left of the wall, the wall also had gum as well as dust and cockroaches. I've seen a lot of disgusting things and people and this was just revolting.

I'd rather live, I bent my legs more and heard an obvious crack, my eyes widened and started watering again. As I compressed my entire body I felt the wall press against my arms, I stood there as the girl came closer but so did William.

I didn't like William but now I had a reason. I imagined everything I had to live for, my cat back at home with my parents, one day having a better life, for my sister, for the good adrenaline that I felt when I was with Kai. I breathed in and out slowly and felt footsteps slightly vibrate the floor. I searched for the girls hand only finding a condom in a spiderweb, I couldn't shake it off because it would make a noise. I looked for the big spider on my left but it wasn't there, I felt a sudden urge to itch my body but I couldn't because this gap between the wall and dumpster was small. I heard breathing that I hoped wasn't mine and prayed to god, even though I never believed in him.
I had an urge to run and hide and I just wanted to go home.

"fucking women" .I heard William say, that sexist fucking.. I wish I could be nicer to him but I'm trying my best. I held my breath until I heard him go far enough.

As I heard his footsteps leave the only thing I could hear was my heart beating, I held my breath and silently cried. I felt the warmth of the tears cross my face.

The girl told me to stay and left, after 5 minutes she said in a normal voice "he left" I immediately exhaled, and left the crusty spot. *"I'll bring you to my house? not in a date way I just don't want to die"* she asked I nodded and walked with her. Throughout the walk she saw me crying and looking around frantically, *"I'm Winter, and you're y/n"* *"I read your name tag thing earlier"* she was really nice. I saw a normal looking house ahead, *"that's my house, sorry it's not the best"* she pointed. She unlocked the door with a key under the doormat and let me walk in all the lights were off.

*"is it okay if you sleep in the basement?"* the girl asked, I felt as if I was finally safe and could talk now *"that's fine"*. The girl seemed shocked, I saw the dim lighting as it was becoming the very early morning but she grabbed my hand to guide me, I saw a staircase and kitchen. She unlocked the basement and showed me to a couch in front of a tv. *"make yourself at home I guess"* she mumbled, she was tired. She brought me a blanket and said goodnight, 'I'm in a stranger's house' I thought.

The blanket was soft and the basement was cold, I heard a click she must've locked me in here.
I stared at the roof for a bit, before crying for a bit. I held my shoulders in pain and silently sobbed to myself.

I took out my phone and turned it on, I smiled when I saw my Lock Screen.
Saturn, my cat. He had fluffy ginger fur and long whiskers, he was my reason to live. I wiped my tears and looked at the time, 4:56am was the time and I was on 24% I lowered the brightness and volume and turned off my phone.

My eyelids slowly fell as I started thinking.

I woke up.

Why was I in Williams car? He drove quickly and held my thigh, I couldn't move or say anything. He stopped somewhere and began to undress me. I tried yelling and screaming but I couldn't. I couldn't move, he slowly took off my shirt and began to unzip his pants. I felt violated, I couldn't see much but I saw a sudden hand movement and knew what he was doing. I felt the same warm tears on my face. *"you're so hot when you cry"* , only felt myself cry even more.

He was disgusting and I never wanted to see him again. I heard William gasp loudly before zipping his pants up and slapping my thigh, I felt embarrassed and violated and scared.
I craved the feeling of safety.

I felt a cold sweat cover my body and I tried to not breath loudly but I couldn't, the thoughts of what could've happened overwhelmed me. How could I go back to work now. My life could've been ruined, what if Saturn was abandoned and didn't see me ever again. Was I overreacting, why am I like this. Why am I in a stranger's house. Oh no why was this happening to me?? I felt my breathing quicken and I tried to make it stop but I couldn't I felt like I was being controlled.