oneshots that I write cause im sad XD

Single

(not a you and leo story just some poetic ranting about my life lol)

Single.

I've been it all my life.

17 years, no dates, no hugs, no kisses, no love.

Though its not like I make it easy for myself. The few, and I mean few, people that have asked me out have faced a disappointing result.

Then again, they were never the best contenders in the first place.

"Ayo can I get your snap?"

"You got a boyfriend?"

"Can I get your insta." As he friend stood back holding a camera and giggling.

Is this all I'm worth? Some girl in a douchebag's TikTok.

A girl we all know said it wisely once...

Why am I always hit on by the boys I never like?

Feels like a curse.

People calling you pretty but not the ones you want.

Few people wanting you but with ill intentions.

Makes you feel worthless after a while.

As I sit and watch my friend get into relationships and talk to boys, both that they want and that want them, like it was so easy.

I listen as my friend tell me about the prom dress she plans to wear to her boyfriend's prom.

Whether you want to admit it or not, high school is engulfed in dating culture, hookup culture.

It's so easy to tell someone,

"You just haven't met the right one yet."

Well then, when is he gonna come? I'm waiting, patiently.

And as crushes come and go. Rejection repeats itself. It makes me wonder, what's the point?

Am I not good enough?

Not pretty enough?

Too loud?

Not smart enough?

Too weird?

Not involved enough?

What is it?

Being cast so far outside of dating culture, while to your married parents, or your dating friends it may not be a big deal.

It is.

It hurts.

It sucks.

But...

Even though it's hard to say.

I can feel him.

I can see him.

He's out there.

My Leo.

So don't get discouraged if you haven't found your Leo yet.

Because they will come into your life and show you love in ways that you couldn't imagine.

Don't force it.

Just let nature run its course.

And maybe one day.

No, one day...

You'll find yours.