As I moved my hands, they went lower until they reached the hem of his sweatpants. I pulled them down just enough, then I contemplated...
Do I really wanna do this? Am I ready? To give it all to him?
I looked up into his eyes and I saw love. And I love him. I want to give myself to the person I love. I didn't think twice before moving my hand lower...and lower.
My thought process of what was going on got interrupted by Cameron's voice, "oh my god baby don't tease me like that..." He spoke getting more tense throwing his head off to the side a little. I smiled and right before I pulled his pants off completely, Cam flipped us over that way I was on top.
"Nope, not so fast babe." He said looking up at me as I straddled his waist. He lifted up my shirt a little then bit his lip, he soon lifted the whole shirt off.
He stared intently and lustfully before kissing down my stomach as I arched my back, completely loving the feeling of his lips on my bare skin. He left love bites down my chest and stomach.
(Cameron's P.O.V)
She seemed as if she wanted this as much as I did. I wanted her to give herself to me. I wanted her to give me her trust. I thought about how amazing thing would be once the trust part got out of the way. She'd be able to trust me with anything if she trusted me with her virginity. I don't want to just "fuck her" like the guys think I do. That's not who I am. I love her too much. I wanted to make love to her.
"Baby, you want this right?" I whispered in her ear hoping she would say yes.
She looked down and shifted uncomfortably. "Umm, I think so. I'm not sure Cameron. I-"
I cut her off with a kiss, "hey look at me baby, I want this. And something about the way this night is going is telling me you might want this too. Do you trust me?"
Her eyes glistened, "I do trust you" she said simply. A tear strolled down her cheek. Why was she crying? I didn't like this. I never saw this before.
"Babe, wait wait, why are you crying? Are you okay?" I spoke quietly.
"I just, I can't do this. I'm not ready Cameron I'm sorry" she said with more tears running down her cheeks.
"Why not, (y/n) I need to know you trust me enough so I could have all of you"
She hesitated for a minute or so "I just can't okay?! Can you just leave it alone please? I'm not ready and you should accept that." She shouted at me. She turned to face the wall and wrapped the blanket around her.
"I guess this is what I get for dating a girl who's younger than me..." I said to myself getting frustrated.
"Ya know what Cameron I thought you loved me enough to understand! You always promised my age would never be a problem! But of course your hormones get the best of you and Fucking is all you care about just like every other guy!"
"Calm down I never said any of that! You know I love you! It's just that bc you're younger than me, you aren't gonna be ready to give yourself to me for a while! For your information, I don't wanna fuck you at all! I just wanted to know if you trusted me enough to make love to you...that's all. But clearly you don't. Oh and I'm not like every other guy bc not just any guy would love you the way I do and that's a fact but it's whatever. Whether we have sex or not I fuckin love you (y/n) when are you gonna realize that?!" I yelled before walking out the room.
I was hurt that she would think have the same mentality as an average guy.
