Eyes

4. "Whatever tickles your pickle."

I woke up all sweaty and panting. I dreamed about Ashton bullying me. I guess I'm scared that he'll bully me in real life. I stood up and walked to the bathroom. I felt dirty, so I decided to take a nice relaxing bath. I think I deserve that after a day of being slapped and running away from the populars. I really don't want to go to school tomorrow, but I made new friends and I don't want to take the risk of the lunch being a one time thing with the guys. I let the water fill up the bathtub. I got a towel and a lavender bathbomb. I rubbed my eyes and looked in the mirror. Good job Nora, you just smushed your mascara. I grabbed my eye makeup remover from the cabinet and used it for my eyes. I turned to the bathtub and shut the tap. I got the bathbomb out of the package and placed it in the bathtub it smelled so good. The water turned purple immediately. I did my hair in a messy bun and stripped down my clothes. I stepped in the tub and layed down. God I needed this. I enjoy the warm feeling and smell the lavender for a whole hour. I got out of the bathtub and and wrapped the towel around my body. I walked back to my room towards my closet. I got out my underwear, bra, grey sweatpants and a blink- 182 t-shirt and put them on too. I just let my hair in the messy bun. I wasn't planning on going out tonight anyway. It was getting cold in my room, so I closed the window. I got my journal out of my school bag and started writing.

5/20/15 5:33 pm

Well hello there old thing,

Today was hard and embarrassing, but interesting. Let's start at the moment when I got a sick feeling in my stomach when Tristan woke me up. I new I'd start my first day as a senior and I didn't looked forward to it. I was planning on walking to school to have more time for myself and prepare for the day, but mom and I made a deal last night that I totally forgot. We were having pizza for dinner for the third time in a row this week and she would drive me to school, but I shouldn't complain. Mom is the best thing that ever happened to me. She told me I would be fine and that I had to smile that gorgeous smile of mine. She's always there for me and is always in a good mood. I saw Sam again and of course I was happy to see him, but since he found out he was gay, last year we kind of lost a lot of contact. He's more with his other friends than with me and he knows he's my only friend, but I'm happy with what I have. Tyler caused a scene today and told me this year would be worse and of course Courtney had to make it worse by slapping me on my cheek. Yupp. The fucking slut slapped me and for the first time ever since kindergarten I wanted to call her out and hit her all over her face, but I got interrupted by a guy named Luke. He stood up for me, something that no one else in the school would do. He made her apologize to me and it surprised me that she actually did. Luke and I talked and annoyed each other for a while and went back to class. Apparently we have English together and he sent a small paper with "How's your morning been so far? -L" at first I didn't know who it was, but when my eyes scanned around the room and landed on the back of the class and stopped at a boy with a big blond quiff and a lip ring, he smiled and quickly waved at me. Lucy noticed me quickly waving back and commented on what a boy like him does, with a girl like me. I ignored her though, just like I always do. Luke and I had lunch together and I met his friends Calum and Michael. I have homeroom, chemistry and P.E. with Michael and Maths, physics and art with Calum. They are a band and they're called 5 Seconds Of Summer. Luke sings and plays the guitar and so does Michael. Calum also sings and plays the bass and then there's Ashton. He plays the drums and doesn't really has solos. I haven't met him, but I watched him from a distance. He was hot and cute at the same time and I just don't get why he has to be friends with Courtney and the others. That's also the reason he wasn't with us at lunch btw. I guess I'm scared that they told him about me and that I just gained another bully, but I can't help it, but feel jealous of Courtney. Yes. Believe it or not, but Nora Jones is jealous of someone. I'm not used to this feeling. I never used to be jealous and I can't help it but think about Ashton all the time. He seems to pop up every time I look at something or someone and I didn't even met him. I think I have a little crush on him. Oh well. Let's talk about the populars showing at my locker again after school and threatened me with the fact that I had new friends that will stand up for me, it didn't mean the bullying will stop. Jay pulled me by the hair to face them and pushed me against the lockers behind me. I felt a bit dizzy for a couple of seconds, but I'll live. Blake then hit my cheek harder than Courtney did and I pushed as hard as I could, which was hard and ran, for my sakes. They ran after me, but I managed to get rid of them. When I came home only Tristan was in the house. He told me mom and dad had a meeting. It begins to bother me that I can't come home without seeing an empty house or just Tristan in the living room. They're never here and it looks like they love their job more than spending time with Tris and I, but now I think about it, I really want a job. I know my parents buy me everything since they work for a big company and I'm so grateful for all the stuff that I have, but I would like to earn my money like a normal teenager. I know, weird right? Well... I gotta go. I'm hungry and want to go downstairs to see if mom and dad are home yet,
Oh no wait!
guess what?! Ashton popped in my thoughts again. Is it weird that I actually don't mind? Yes? Okay. I really need to try to forget him, otherwise he'll turn out to be more than a crush. Sigh