Just another diary of a mythical-to-be

Rant

Some context first: i have very messed up teeth. Before i got braces i had several gaps and one tooth was completely rotated the wrong way. I also has 2 teeth that i never had so once those baby teeth fell out i never had teeth there. I was never self conscious about it or anything. If anything i loved it cause it's something that made me different. I didn't care if others thought it was weird or something

Not onto the rant:

Currently I'm supposed to wear a retainer. I have 3 two for my top teeth and one for my bottom teeth. Ever since I got braces/ a retainer I've been more self conscious about my teeth. Why? Because if my teeth look like that people won't like you, you'll have a hard time making friends, getting a job, making relationships. Why should what my teeth look like matter? I like the way my teeth are it was something that made me different i don't care that others dislike it or whatever but being told that's it's something wrong with me that it's wrong it's just tiring. It's not the only part of me people do this to. It's tiring and i want it to stop. Why can't we just live in a world where looks don't matter? Why can't we live in a world where people don't care what you look like and only care about who you are and what you are like. 

The other big thing I'm insecure about is my body. There are parts of my body i like. I like the way my hands are. There small yet long and skinny. My other name i don't really feel comfortable saying some days i hate them other days i look in a mirror and say "if i had a smaller stomach/waist and different face i would be hot af" i also like my hair. It's naturally curly and very pretty when taken care of the right way but most of the time it's just annoying with how many knots it makes. That's it. There's not much of me i like but the parts i do like are constantly being told that that part is wrong and should look different. It's annoying but I've learned to live with it. I've figured if you can't love me for me than f off i don't care what you think it's my body and I'm not changing it for anyone.

Although I am fucked when i got to the orthodontist again sometime in February. My top retainer barley fits and i haven't worn my bottom one since November or October i can't remember. Sooo anyone know of any subliminals that can make i teeth go straight within the next few days???