Just another diary of a mythical-to-be

Advice needed

Ok so guys. Recently i had the thought that im meant to be a mermaid along with neko and mg. Heres the thing im not sure if that right or not. I would love to be a mermaid but im not sure it would fit my lifestyle. I love water and the ocean and lakes and nature but it's really hard for me to go outside. Not cause i refuse to go outside mainly cause of my parents. Neither of my parents are big on spending time outside. My dad likes to hike but he likes to stay on the main path. I like to go on those other paths typically made by other hikers that aren't on a map but are really fun to go on. Plus neither of them are big fans of going into a lake and swimming. So im not sure how i would practice swimming. But now that im older i can drive myself (not yet soon tho) to a lake or something. Maybe i should just manifest some friends that are mythicals (Specifically mermaids) So they can take me somewhere to go swimming.

Although in the future i think it could work. Assuming i still live on Earth in the future i want to like in the middle of nowhere with a mountain and river/lake. Then i could go swimming whenever. I guess i also have two friends that could help me. One of the is J i dont remember what i named the other one in this book. C i think. Although jm not sure about them either. Im not sure how good J is at keeping secrets plus her parents (mainly her mom) is very controlling so if i were to tell here id have to do it in person. C im kind of scared about. She goes to a private Christian school. She is not that religious but she used to be. Perhabs if i do decide to tell them i need some proof first. Otherwise they might think im insane. 

Back to the mermaid stuff. I do think it's possible im a mermaid. I honestly think that there might be a mermaid in my family. Where there was a mermaid. Whoever it was is most likely dead now. Only reason i say this is cause nearly ever women on my moms side of my family is obsessed with the ocean/lakes/water/mermaids. I wouldn't be that surprised if i had some mermaid DNA in me. 

Basically should i try to become a mermaid? and should i tell my friends?