Redemption

Chapter 12

1 year later
I stood over the small burial site, that belonged to my baby. He was only a couple doors down from my nana. "Today, I make peace, I would've loved you so much. Hell I do now. I just really wish you were here. I trust that God has better plans for you up there, mommy loves you so much Angel. I leaned over to kiss the tombstone, and put down a white rose. I waved and headed back to the car.

"You okay mama? TaeTae asked? She quit her job and moved down here to stay with me. She just knew I was about to cry.
"Hey, hey, it's okay, No more tears." She hugged me patting my back.

"I just want to know why did God needed him more than I did. Did I not deserve him?"

"STOP! We've been over this. God used this to free you from Devyn. This is a blessing in disguise. The sooner you realize that, the sooner you'll notice that your baby is with the best father he could ever have. Your here to make peace. So suck it up and let's go! You will see them again!" Nakyah scolded and snatched me from Tae's hold. She was right, I wiped my eyes, drank some water and got in the car-then we headed back to my place. This is one reason why I love Kyah, she's gonna get me all the way together. I needed that, but I also needed TaeTae's love at the same time. I wouldn't trade my besties for the world.

"Wassup wifeeyyy!" I was met at my door with balloons, and candles and a giant teddy bear.

"Alexxxxxx oh my godddd" I ran and jumped on him.

"I missed you so much booooo!" He caught me and we spun around and around like a love scene in a movie.

"Aww how sweet, you gonna open the door now." Kyah pitched. I mugged her and pulled out my keys to open the door. We all got inside, and I immediately put the rest of flowers in a vase.

"Soooo, are we gonna talk about it now." Alex swiveled up behind me.

"I'm still not ready."

"This was your dream. Pooh, I know what today is, and I know what your going through, but y—"

"Do you Alex?! Do you know what I'm going through." I snapped.

"I know exactly what your going through. Dev damn near beat you to death, you lost a baby, you gave up on the salon, and You completely, obliterated your fathe-

"DON'T YOU DARE SAY HIS NAME!" I squealed breaking down. A few months after the situation with Devyn, Once my dad knew, what really happened. He went out in search of Devyn. Once he found him, he put him in the hospital. Problem is After I got out of the hospital, Dave and I made up, it was our secret tho. Was it a terrible choice, yes. But I didn't think so at the time.

Once I found out what my dad did, I tore him to shreds. I told him that I hated him, and how he should get hit by a bus. I wished death on my own father, for a man who beat me to a pulp and tried to kill me. Right then and there he had suffered a heart attack, which luckily was treated in time. I was still so mad at him, that I didn't go to the hospital or return any of his calls. He is now spending 8 years in prison for the attempted murder of Devyn, as well as having 2 kilos of coke in his car. I later found out Devyn placed it there to ensure my father would be behind bars. It's only been a couple months since he's been in there and we still haven't spoken since before the heart attack.

As much as I want to reach out, something just stops me. Guilt, fear, anger, relief, shame. It all takes over and causes me to put the phone down. As for my mom, she was upset with me as well, but the two of us have worked out our issues since.

"I'm sorry. Okay?" Alex confronts while we consoles me. "I just hate to see how you've given up. So what life hit you hard, get back up and keep going. I want so much better for you babes." I started to chuckle. He really talks to me like I'm his girl or something.

"Now that's a laughter I've been waiting months to hear."

"Shut up", I wacked his chest, pulling away from his arms. "And I'm sorry,I know your just trying to help. Your right."

"Oh oh oh, say that one more time I didn't hear you" he placed his hands to his ear leaning closer to my mouth.

"I said you were right baby." He stepped back nodding his head as we shared a good long laugh.

"Tiaaaaaaaa" Little Nicholas runs to me crying with his arms stretched.

"Aww what's wrong ti-it- baby," I cooed as I scooped him up and wiped the tears from his face. He pointed to his mama, as she began walking into the kitchen from the guest room.

"You keep it up." Kyah threatened, and pointed at him.

"You leave my baby alone" I held him tighter and turned him away from her.

"We'll your baby just, ruined all of my makeup palettes, and that fenty foundation, you know your favorite one. He squirted it all over the bathroom floor... So he deserves that ass whooping and since your running to his rescue, you can clean it up. Okay ti-ti" she says shoving paper towels in my arms.

"aww neeko, you can't be doing that." I pouted at him, and he laughed in my face.

Kyah started laughing too. "Not your seeing what I have to deal with." She smirked and walked back into the guest room, i placed some snacks down in the play pen, then place him in there. Then I turned on the tv, to keep him occupied while I cleaned up.

TaeTae, Kyah, Alex and I finished the night with a movie, wine and dinner. Tommorow is back to work.

It's short I know lol, I've been having writers block, but don't worry guys I've figured it out❤️