Broken Promises (Harry Styles FanFiction)

Why?

RACHEL'S POV:
I woke up with no one beside me. I looked round the room and saw harry standing by his window looking in the distance. He looked distracted.
"Harry?" I whispered going over to him.
"Don't touch me!" He said harshly as he pulled his arm away from my grip. I felt tears come to my eyes. Why was he being like this? "How long?" He almost whispered.
"What? How long what?" I asked confused.
"This!" He shouted and grapped my arm and pulled my sleeve up to show my scars. "HOW LONG HAVE YOU DONE THIS!" He shouted and I just wanted to break down and cry. Cry for how stupid I was. Cry for loving harry. Cry for cutting myself. Cry for everything. "TELL ME!" He shouted.
"I'm sorry." I muttered and stepped away from him. He scared me when he was angry. He was never angry at me and he was so scary. Why did I even come here? Oh that's right because my best friend needed help.
"Don't say you're sorry just tell me how long?!" He shouted.
"A month." I whispered
"What?!" He asked shocked
"A MONTH! HAPPY NOW!" I shouted at him. I know by now we would have woken the boys up but I didn't care at the moment.
"Why?!" He asked.
"I DON'T KNOW MAYBE BECAUSE I HAVE TO WATCH THE ONE I LOVE, LOVE SOMEONE ELSE! MAYBE BECAUSE MY MUM AND DAD TELL ME IM A MISTAKE AND HAVE RUINED EVERYONES LIFE! MAYBE BECAUSE IM A MESS AND CANT HELP BUT DO EVERYTHING WRONG! I DONT KNOW?!" I shouted.
"I'm sorry..." He trailed off.
"What?!" I asked again not sure i heard him right,
"I SAID IM SORRY! IM SORRY I DONT FEEL THE SAME WAY YOU DO! IM SORRY YOU HAVE TO WATCH ME BE IN LOVE WHILE YOU'RE HURTING!  I'm sorry..."He shouted but went quietier at the end.
I was about to walk away when Harry pulled me into a tight hug. I was shocked at first but hugged him back.
"I'm sorry" I whispered.
"Me too" He whispered back.
"Promise me you wont do it again?" Harry said as we pulled away. "Promise me rachel?" He begged as i stayed quiet.
I nodded. "I promise." I said and We hugged again, tight. We pulled away once again because someone coughed behind us. We looked at the door way and saw Louis standing there.
"Harry someones at the door." He said and harry nodded and went to see who.
I walked past Lou downstairs but stopped half way down the stairs. Harry was at the door with Georgia. I felt Louis bumped into me because of my sudden stop. He saw what i was looking at sighed.
"How do you do it?" He asked
"Do what?" I asked confused.
"How do you watch the one you're so in love with, love someone else?"
"I dont know. I mean i see how happy he is with her and how much he loves her. Seeing him happy makes me happy, so if he is happy why should i ruin it for my own selfish maners." I said with a shrug.
"You're amazing you know, letting the one you love go for them to be happy." He said with a small smile and i smiled back.
"Well its like what someone special once told me. If you love someone or something let them go, if they come back it was meant to be." I said
"And if not?" Lou asked.
"Then it was never meant to be..." I trailed off and lou nodded.

This conversation reminded me of the one me and Harry had a week before the x factor....