Broken Promises (Harry Styles FanFiction)

Hurt.

Rachels Pov:

I followed harry downstairs after i said that i would met his girlfriend.
"Hey guys" Harry said as we got to the livingroom. 'Hi's' and 'Hellos' were said back from everyone.
"Errr, Georgia this is Rachel my...." He trailed off not knowning what to call me and i didnt know what to say ether. I mean we're not really best friends anymore, are we?
"Old friend" I finished. I looked and Harry and smiled, he smiled back but i could see the hurt in his eyes. He wanted to say i was his best friend but we both know maybe we should just leave eachother alone for a bit.
"Yea, old friend" He muttered
"Hey Rachel, nice to met you, so how long have you known harry?" She asked me. She seemed nice.
"Errrr, we went to school together but when he left to x factor we sort of lost contact." I said and she nodded. "Well, i better go" I said and waved to georgia and the boys.
"I'll walk you out" Harry said and i followed him to the front door.
"Thanks for the clothes" I said and i turned to face Harry, he was looking at the ground. I felt guilt a lot of it. Without thinking i hugged him. He looked startled at first but hugged me back and buried his head in my neck. "I'm sorry" I whispered as we hugged, he didnt say anything so i contuined. "I'm sorry we arent best friends like before and im sorry i stopped fighting, I'm sorry for everything" I whispered.
"I'm sorry too" I heard Harry whisper back. We pulled away and we both had tears in our eyes.
"I'm happy for you" I suddenly said and Harry looked at me confused.
"What do you mean?" He asked confused.
"You and Georgia. I'm happy for you. I can that she makes you happy and seeing you happy makes me happy. I'm glad you found the one" I said looking down trying to hold back tears.
"Rachel?" Harry whispered but i shook my head and chuckled nervously.
"Hey, we'll still see eachother. Not like we use to and not we would like but we will see eachother. If we see eachother walking past or near by,I'll smile or maybe even wave and you'll do the same. We'll be like strangers who met once." I said and Harry looked in my eyes as i still held back the tears.
"I'll see you around i guess" He said and i nodded. I gave him a small wave and walked off to my house.

It hurt. It really hurt. Watching the one you love truely be happy with someone else. But like i said if his happy i am. Im glad he found the one and maybe i will. Maybe i will fall out of love with Harry but right now i know its not going to happen. I'm just me and Georgias perfect. If i was him i wouldnt pick me ether. I'm not pretty, I'm not skinny. I've never had someone call me theirs and them to be happy about it. I've had a couple of boyfriends but known of them worked out because they werent happy with me in the end. We would have a couple of good weeks and then it would go down hill. And everytime it happen i got upset. Harry was always there for me and helped me through it and if he was upset i would do the same. Now look at us. We're not like we were and i dont know if we ever will. Thats the sad part. I want to go back how it was. Back when it was easier. Back when i didnt have these stupid feelings for Harry.

"Darling whats the matter?" My mum asked as i walked through the door with tears streaming down my cheeks.
"Like you care!" I said a little harsh.
"Why do you think that?" She asked dumbly.
"Maybe because this morning you said i was a mistake, that you should've had me and that i ruined everyones life!" I shouted at her. She didnt say anything so i stomped up to my bedroom.

I laid on my bed and thought about my life. I hated it. Hated what it had come to. I slowly got up and made my way to the bathroom. I looked in mirror and looked at my reflection. I wasnt who i use to be. I use to be always happy, i use to have that sparkle in my eyes. But no. It was only there when Harry was with me and knowning we will never be the same my life was useless. My family hated me and Harry hated me. I opened the cupboard and saw a razor. I picked it up and Pressed it against my wrist. I moved it and cut myself. I've never done it befor ebut people say its a way of getting red of the pain, and they were right. I started to feel whole again.
1 cut - For My family Hating me

2 cut- For Harry

3 cuts- for Keith

4 cuts- for keiths Family

5 cuts- for being a mistake.

I quickly got a cloff and cleaned up the bleed and bandaged my wrist to stop it bleed. Then i walked back to my room and looked out my window. I saw all the boys from the Harrys livingroom window laughing and talking, having fun. I couldnt sit and watch any more so i closed my curtains and walked over to my bed. I needed sleep.