Often times, I think that love is one of the most lousiest excuse to break yourself. Growing up, I've always thought of it as a stupid hallucination that people brag about.
But now that I've experienced it myself, I feel even more stupid.
I've done so much for love, and yet I feel unsatisfied. I feel like I always need to give more, to sacrifice more. Even despite everything that I went through, I still think that it is still not enough.
I sat on the single couch, in front of Ali who's also sitting on a single couch. The only thing separating the both of us from eachother is the small coffee table.
"What's your plan?" I ask, my legs crossed while both of my palms were resting on the arm rest of the couch.
Ali slicked his hair back, looking utterly bothered.
"I'm leaving" He says in a low tone.
"You are?" Tanong ko pabalik.
Suminghap siya bago tumango, para bang lahat ng nangyayari ngayon sa paligid namin ay lingid sa kagustuhan niya.
"I'm going back to manila for a scheduled interview today" Sagot naman niya na ikinagulat ko.
After what happened yesterday, we talked it out but I can still feel the tension lingering between us both. Ngayon lang kasi uli kami nag-away uli kaya siguro hindi namin alam kung paano kami aakto.
"Really?" I tilted my head to the side.
"Yes. Lilinawin ko lang ang sarili ko nang matapos na ang lahat ng 'to" Tumango naman ako. That's a relief.
"That's good...are you leaving today?" He nodded as a response.
"Pagkatapos nito aalis na ako, ikaw? Magkikita pa naman tayo, 'di ba?" Marahang kumunot ang nuo ko sa sinabi niya.
Hindi ko inaakalang iisipin niyang ito na ang huling pagkikita namin.
"Why? We're you expecting this as our last time talking to eachother?"
Matagal na katahimikan ang naghari sa pagitan naming dalawa bago siyang bumuntong hininga.
"I did" He utters.
"Pero magkikita pa naman tayo, 'di ba? Pagkatapos ng lahat ng 'to?" I blinked, swallowing the lump in my throat that has been tormenting my well being since the morning.
"Of course, bakit sa tingin mo hindi na?" I couldn't even make up a straight sentence, I was almost stuttering.
"Wala lang...'wag mo nang pansinin" He scratched the tip of his nose before shifting uncomfortably on his seat.
"Ikaw ba, kailan ka babalik ng Manila?" He finally asks.
Napaisip ako, I actually also have a scheduled interview that I haven't told him yet. Last minute ko lang 'yon sinabi kay Gina, I thought it's best for me to finally tell the public about my relationship with Ali.
It's a big risk I'm taking but I have to do it. I know it would paint me as a big hypocrite but at this point, I don't care anymore. I just want to live my life the way I want to.
"Babalik ako bukas, I also scheduled a...meeting" Sagot ko pabalik.
His brows shot up. "Bakit?"
I shrugged, shaking off the fact that, that meeting is such a big deal and it could infact ruin my career.
"To tell everyone about our relationship with eachother" God, that sounded so stupid.
"Gagawin mo 'yon?" Hindi ko alam kung masaya ba siya o naguguluhan o gulat dahil sa tono niya.
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