The door bell rung, it was Kendall. "Hey." I said letting him in and he smiled at me. we went up to my room and I sat on my bed, he sat in my computer chair. "So how are you? You doin ok?" He asked with concern. "Yeah, I'm fine." I said with a fake smile. He gave me the I'm not buying it look and came and sat next to me on the bed. "Can we talk about this?" He asked and I groaned. It's the last thing I wanted to talk about. "I know I cheated on you.. I know I was wrong.. I regret it so much.." He said, tears forming in his eyes. ",I have this huge weight on my chest.. I mean it was your birthday and you found me kissing Kaitlin in your room.. I'm so so sorry. Can we please put this behind us? I know it's a lot to ask for but I honestly miss my best friend." He said, breaking into tears. I wrapped my arms around him, trying not to cry myself. "Shh, it's ok Kendall I forgive you, it was a long time ago. Yes, it still bothers me but I miss you too. I feel like a loner without you here." I said with a giggle and he smiled. Kendall hugged me back as I held him. My bedroom door flew open. "What the fuck?" James said when he saw me holding Kendall. I let go. "Oh, no hun it's not like that. We were just talking." I said, reassuring James I had no interest in Kendall. "Ok good, because you're mine!" James said, picking me up off the bed bridal style and kissing me. I smiled and He put me down. He completely ignored Kendall the whole time. "I missed you, It's been like 3 days." James said, hugging me. I laughed. "I missed you too babe." I said, and then looked back at Kendall. He looked really uncomfortable. "So uh are you staying for dinner?" I asked James and he shook his head. "I can't babe I gotta go to work, I'm sorry. I should probably go now actually." He said, hugging me goodbye. He whispered in my ear"babe just be careful, I just don't trust him. Don't let him kiss you or touch your or.." James went on but I stopped him. "Nothing's gonna happen. I trust him." I whispered back and he left. "Sorry about that." I said and Kendall nodded. "It's all good. So you and James are like a thing now?" He asked and I nodded. "Oh.. I-I didn't see that one coming." He said, with a lump in his throat. I looked down. "Yeah." I replied. "He was my best guy friend.." Kendall said, and I stared him straight in the eye. "You deserved it." I said, sounding a lot meaner than I meant to. "I know, it's just a shock. We used to hang out all the time.. Did you always like him?" He asked, looking up at me. "No, I was so blinded by being in love with you that I never thought of anyone else that way." I answered, honestly. "I'm so sorry, cass. I can't say it enough.. What I did was terrible.." Kendall said, but I quickly interrupted him. "Did you ever actually love me?" I asked and he put his face in his hands. I waited a minute then asked again. "...I still do." He said so quietly that I almost didn't hear him. I froze. I didn't know what to say to that, because the truth was.. I still loved him too.
