****Attention Readers!!!!!*** okay this is very important. there is a chapter before 'happy pills' but for those of you who are not following me wont be able to see it. >.< im sorry i truly am. its not my fault. wattpad is fucking up. but if you do not follow me I suggest you go and follow me just so you can read that chapter it will come in handle later in the story ;) and once you read it you can unfollow me if you want.
Okay I just noticed how many mistakes I make in these chapters -_- its starting to piss me off frfr when I see all them errors I feel stupid. lbs so ima start re-reading these chapters before I post them. anyways enjoy. rosie on the side
Jacob(Pov): why does god hate me? why did he give me this horrible life? I almost made the biggest mistake in my life yesterday. I almost hit the only girl I have ever loved. I wouldn't even be able to live with my self if I did such a thing, I don't care about my stupid condition and how mad I get and no matter what the situation is, I will NEVER hit rosie. but now I don't no where our relationship stands. yea she said she forgave me , but you and I both know that's a lie. after I dropped her off at home this morning she was acting mad weird. she was quiet as hell all night and she went straight to sleep on me while I just laid there and watched her. call me a creep so fucking what its not like I care. but now rosie know about my anger issues, smh. she might even brake up with me because of it. and I would understand if she did, nobody wants to be around a person with anger problems. I could blow up on her at any moment. I sighed as I pulled up into the parking lot of the emergency room and parked the car. me and my mom got out and made our way into the building. I went and sat down as my mom went to the front desk. soon she came over to me with some papers she had to fill out.
"so are you going to tell me what happened now? " mom asked while filling out the papers.
" I punched the wall." I said simply like it was no big deal.
" again jake?!"
I took a deep frustrated breath.
"yes ma."
" have you been taking your medication?"
"yes." I said starting to get irritated.
"what made you do it?"
Jacob: just drop it ma, please. its no big deal.
she opened her mouth to speak but then closed it back. I knew she didn't want to make me mad. ever since we found out about my 'problem' mom tries to lay off me and not get my temper worked up. not because she thought I would hurt her but so I wouldn't hurt my self. this is the 9th time iv punched a hole in the wall but this time I was just so angry, I was angry at the fact that I know rosie won't like the real me. mom sighed then got up to give the lady the forms. we sat in the waiting room in silence until they called my name. all they did was wrap it up and give me a little cast that goes up to my wrist. no big deal. soon as I pulled up in the in the drive way of the house I parked my car and got straight out. yea just because my hand is broke don't mean I can't drive, ima pro.
Mama Theresa: You hungry sweetie?
"no." I said plainly and went straight up into my room plopping on the bed, i checked my phone. I noticed I had 5 missed calls and 15 text messages all from rosie. I didn't even bothered to call back or open up the texts she probably was just trying to tell me its over. I just can't deal with the heart break, not right now.
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I woke up to the sound of my plain ole alarm and dragged my self out of bed. I took my precious time getting ready. once I handled all my hygiene I went down stairs to be met by my mom in the kitchen.
Mom: good morning honey.
"morning." I said not trying to hide my mood at all.
Mom: sit down and eat your breakfast.
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