Roses Have Thorns

Overwhelmed

I went back to my sit at the bar and kept taking a shot... after the incident in the bathroom I tried to follow freen but she walked fast and went back at the dance floor. So I just decided to just drink again. It just makes me feel the need to tell her that it wasn't what she think it was. Although, she saw my hands inside her pants but I stopped...

ahhhh fuck why am I feeling this way? I started rubbing my forehead out of frustration..

I heard people started cheering and I looked at the dance floor.. freen is kissing a dude. I walked towards them without even thinking about it. I grabbed the guys shirt to break their kiss and I grabbed freen and took her outside the bar..

"Get off!" She yelled trying to pull her hand

I let her go but I cornered her.. I tried to touch her face but I closed my eyes and bit my lower lip to stop myself.

She then pushed me but I grabbed her hand again and cornered her again

"You're annoying." I said

She chuckled "I'm annoying?!"

"Stop yelling" I demanded because I'm not even yelling at her

She rolled her eyes and said "what do you want Rebecca?"

I looked at her, it's the first time she called me Rebecca, is she mad?

"You're angry at me" I said

"Stop assuming."

"I didn't kiss her" I said

"And??"

"You... you kissed a guy."

She laughed "why can't I? Atleast my hand wasn't inside his pants"

"So you are mad"

"Why would I?"

"I was drunk.."

"And all you think about is to have sex with anyone right?" She said and I looked at her teary eyes.

"Is that what you think of me?" I asked, I could feel my heart beating fast.. so I tried to control my breathing because I feel like I'm out of breath...

I turned around and closed my eyes because I can't Breathe properly.. I feel overwhelmed, I massaged my forehead trying to calm myself...

Freen grabbed me and pressed our forehead against each other

"Calm down" she whispered.. I started breathing slowly until I calmed down

Freen is still holding my face, I looked at her...

"W..what just happened?"

"You were having a panic attack"

"Why?"

"Because you're overwhelmed"

I mean I know that but why was I overwhelmed?

....

It's been a week and I haven't seen freen. Her cousin Alex is always here.

"What's up kid, haven't seen you in awhile" Eloise said and gave me a kiss on my cheek "ugh I have a really bad hangover" she added and took an ice pack from the fridge

"There's nothing new" I said and she just rolled her eyes.. my sister deserves every bit of this vacation, since she turned 18 she started working as part time because she didn't want us to depend on our parents money. We'd donate money every year to any kid's foundation or any foundations..