Lost Without You

Tara Jay Pov:

It been six months since I started college at Winter College. Mom and Taylor have been very supportive and assist me with my school project and picking me from school  and dropping off. I have made two friends; Caleb Wilson, the guy who assisted me the first day we resumed and Norah Dawn, who both study nursing and are seat-mate. Norah is totally the opposite of me to be honest. Norah is a thick fair skinned girl who is about 5'6 tall and a very extroverted person who enjoys talking and making a lot of friends, going out and enjoying herself. Well, Caleb on the other side is maybe the class worst person. Yeah, I said worst person cause literally nobody enjoys or wants to be friends with him. Caleb  always disturbs the classes and always talks at the wrong times ever saying the wrong things. Most lecturers always sent him out of the class but yeah whatever, I do enjoy his company a lot. Contrary to others, I think he makes me laugh a lot and always offers to go to the school's restaurant with me.
"Tara Jay, Could you please step out and read out the work you had written to us all", my professor said bringing me out of my thoughts.
I didn't hear a single thing he said but I felt Caleb's hand touch my hand and he whispered he is talking to you.
"Uhm yeah i could....", I replied with the calmest voice ever. I had a feeling he wanted me to read out the work I wrote since that was what the whole class had been about and yeah I was correct.

My legs and hands began shaking as I grabbed my book, my MacBook and headed to the front of the classroom.
"Why is she so short?"*laughing*
"Lol, she is a four eye girl"*laughing*
"Who wears a red flare gown and a boot"*laughing*
"The girl is probably dead, I never noticed her in class"*laughing*
"Lol she is so dark, no black I bet I can't let her skin touch a part of me"*laughing
I heard every word and every statement they said but deliberately ignored. I mean, tell me why I would every talk back at someone, I always hated fights or arguing so much I always end up the cry baby even when I am right. I hated anyone seeing me has been vulnerable and weak. Ever since I was six, I made a promise to myself to never get to argue with anyone and it's been working so well except with Taylor who is always a pain in the ass. By they, I mean Ella Louis and her "girls". I never spoke about them to anyone but yeah they are the worst devils ever. They always had one or two awful things to say about anyone.
"Tara..." it was my lecturer again.
I didn't realize I had been standing in front of the whole classroom with my head low and shaking hands and legs.
" hmm sor-rry"

I rose my head up to face the entire classroom and yeah that was it again. A 5'2 dark or black skin girl with long curly hairs and a pink cute glasses having a very unnecessary serious panic attack. I couldn't believe my own self now. Rule number 5 on my list  for college was to never let anyone see me having a panic attack. I had to be strong again. A tear rolled down my cheek and for an instance I felt I was going to break down badly and cry and scream but I was interrupted when i head someone scream from the back "You can do it!!!!!"

I looked up and saw Caleb standing on his seat clapping his hands and screaming "You can do it!!!". Then Norah joined, both scream and smiling at me. I couldn't believe my eyes right now, who stands on a seat to cheer for their mate during a class. I turned a little bit to face my lecturer to be sure he wasn't about to send those two cuties out of the class but he was smiling at me with a thumbs up and that was all I needed. I could have been a very hard girl on the outside but I genuinely love reassurances and supportive people and that was it, Caleb and Norah are literally the best friends ever honestly.

"You can do it" "You would do it" "You are about to do it" "Good-luck Tara", I told myself more like a whisper.
I walked over to the lecturer and place my MacBook on the desk, he connected my MacBook and my work was displayed. I had my books in my hand walked to the middle of the classroom, adjusted my glasses and began to talk. That was all I remembered, I stopped talking and next was the loudest clap I have ever heard in my entire life. Everyone was clapping and smiling at me (well not everyone, I mean look at Ella rolling her eyes and applying some gloss to her already soaked lips) but that wasn't any of my business. The lecturer appreciated my work and almost everyone did. I got back to my seat and hugged Norah and Caleb tightly.

Writer's note: Hey, yeah you reading this. This is a quick reminder to let you know that no matter what happens or what is going on, you can do it.  It is ok to get scared but it is never ok to walk away from your fear. Fight your fears. Conquer your fears and lastly you never need a big circle of friends. Have the least or the highest friends but always get the best friends for yourself. 🖤🖤

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