The Outcasts ✔

Six

Seokjin

"Why couldn't you", he asks. "Because of you Jungkook, because of you, I can't be with anyone else because of you", I say angrily. He's trying not to smile, "why." "Because no matter how much I want to hate you, I can't, my heart won't let me, I can't be with anyone else Jungkook, the last time I had sex was the last time we were together, before you dumped me on a rehab facility doorstep and left me", I say with hurt and anger in my voice, "three years and not a word from you, wondering how I am, three years and you walk back in here like you never left and my stupid heart falls at your feet." 

He steps toward me, but I step away, "NO, stay away, it was so easy for you to stick your dick in everything, wanting to forget me, fuck you Jungkook, the one thing I could never do is forget about you, fuck I couldn't even cheat on you, hell we aren't even together, how fucked up is that, and besides Hobi likes Kyle, I could never hurt him like that, I just wish Hoseok knew how shady Kyle is." "Seokjin", he says stepping closer to me, "just let me hold you, please, so that you can feel how sorry I truly am." 

He wraps his hand around the back of my neck and pulls me to him, I bury my face into his neck and cry, he holds me tightly against him, "I'm sorry I broke my promise, I am so sorry I ran away like a coward, please forgive me baby, I never stopped loving you." I pull away, "I can't do this if you are just going to run again, you took my heart with you last time you left, I don't have another one to give you", I say. 

He looks down at the floor, "you want to know if I am going to stay." I wait for him to finish, "guys." Yoongi runs down the stairs pulling his shirt on, "we have to go to the hospital, they just called." Jimin and Tae drive with Namjoon while Yoongi rides with me and Jungkook, "so did you two make up." "No", I say quickly. I feel Jungkook's eyes on me but I  don't look at him, I know my words hurt him, but it's true, there hasn't been any making up yet, "I'm rooting for you two."

 Yoongi and Jungkook get out of the car at the hospital while I park, I see the doctor in the room with everyone when I get upstairs, "here he is doc." I walk in and Taehyung is in my arms immediately, "this is going to be bad isn't it." I kiss his head, "I don't know Voo." "Okay boys, we ran some tests on Hoseok before moving him to a private room, we found that he has swelling on his spinal cord, Hoseok can't feel his legs", she finally gets to the point. "Wait what", Namjoon asks.

 I look at Hobi and he looks so sad, "when the swelling goes down will he get the feeling back." She looks at me, seeing I am the only one not angry at what is happening, "it's a possibility, we won't know until the swelling subsides." "When can he come home", Yoongi asks. "He's healing well, he can go home tomorrow if someone will be there for him 24/7", the doctor says. Yoongi nods, "we will figure it out."

We say goodbye to Hobi for the night and tell him that we will be back tomorrow to pick him up, on the drive home we are all quiet, not knowing what is going to happen next is a bit scary. At home I make a pot coffee and some breakfast, it's 2am but we need to talk about Hoseok, we sit around the dining room table, eating and figuring out who will talk first, "we need around the clock care for Hoseok, I don't think we can afford a nurse, maybe once or twice a week but not 7 days a week." 

"Between the 5 of us we can take shifts, can't we", Jimin asks. "There is 6 of us", Jungkook says. "You are going back home, aren't you", Yoongi asks. I look at Jungkook, waiting for his answer, he sighs and gets up to put his plate in the sink, "that's what I thought, so there is 5 of us." I walk into the kitchen and watch as Jungkook looks out the window, hurt and conflict on his face, I grab the plates off the table, placing them in sink, "Kook, you aren't obligated to stay, you can go back home, Hoseok is fine and will be well taken care of." 

"Do you want me to leave Seokjin, are you so quick to get rid of me", he asks angrily. I lean against the counter, "Jungkook If you are so unsure, just go, staying with me, staying with your family shouldn't be such a hard decision, if you don't want to stay because of me, then I will leave and you can be here for them finally." "Seokjin, since coming home I have done nothing but apologize and tell you that I love you, I don't want to be here if you aren't, I am just feeling like an outsider, like I don't belong here with you all", he says. 

"Kook you are our brother, no matter what, you don't feel apart of us because you left us, 3 years is long time, if you want to feel welcome and like one of us again then you will need to be all in, because we won't except only half of you anymore", I say. He walks closer to me, placing his hands on my hips, and looking into my eyes, leaning closer he kisses my nose, then grabs my hand and pulls me to the dining room.

I sit and wait for him to talk, "I'm sorry to every single one of you, I was selfish and a horrible brother, I tried to convince myself I didn't need you and that I would be no good for Jin when he got out of rehab, but I was wrong, I came back and I know now that this is where I want to be, I want to be your brother again, be a family." 

I look around at my brothers, and I see skepticism on Jimin and Yoongi's face, but Joon and Taehyung look so happy, "we need to give him time, I see some of you don't look so sure about Jungkook's intentions, but he is our brother and we need to give him chance." Yoongi nods, "you are right Jin, Kook we were hurt when you left, we never denied that, but we want you home here with us where you belong."

After the hugs and tears ended, the others all head off to bed until it was time to get Hobi, I am staying up and moving him into my first floor room, and I'll move my stuff upstairs to his room, it will be easier to maneuver with his wheelchair. Yoongi has a friend that is going to build us a ramp leading up to the house, he said he would start this weekend and it shouldn't take long at all, after everything was moved and his roomed cleaned with new sheets and pillows I was exhausted, I climb the stairs to my new room and fall onto the bed, falling asleep immediately.