The Outcasts ✔

Four

Jungkook

Jin walked out on me last night at the hospital, I haven't seen him since, I am hanging out at the house hoping he will be here but he hasn't shown up yet, I'm worried that my coming back may trigger a relapse, I need to know he is okay.

I leave to pick up Tae and Jimin from school when my phone rings, I look at the screen hoping it's Jin but disappointment sets in when I see it's Namjoon, "hello." "Hobi's awake, get here now", he says frantic. "I'm getting the boys, we'll be there soon", I say hanging up and pulling into the school parking lot.

When we arrive in the ICU everybody is around Hobi's bed, even Jin thank god, we hurry over and when Hobi sees me he is surprised, but doesn't look to excited, "Kook your here." I bend down and kiss his forehead, "how could I not knowing you were hurt." I hear Jin scoff and walk out of the room, I run after him while he waits for the elevator, "Jin please stop, don't leave because of me, Hoseok wants you here and so do I."

He turns to look at me, "Jin I am so sorry, I know I fucked up, I fucked up bad but please let me explain, give me a chance to make it better." He glares at me, "I'm staying for Hoseok." He walks past me and goes back into Hobi's room, I let out a breath and walk back in after him. "Hi boys, can you all not crowd Hoseok so that I can check him out", the doctor asks. We watch as she pokes and prods at him, "what's the prognosis Doc."

"Besides the broken bones and the concussion he seems to be okay, there is no brain damage and there seems to be no spinal cord damage but we are going to give him one more test to check everything", she says. She walks out and we all crowd around him again, everyone talking to him excitedly, all I can do is stare at Jin, he looks at me, his eyes used to tell me everything, even when he was high he could never keep anything from me, he still can't, he misses me as much as I miss him, I may even see love in those big beautiful eyes. "You guys hungry, how about I go get some pizza, I'm sure Hoseok would like something better than this hospital food", Jin says. Everyone excitedly says yes and I speak up, "come on, I'll drive."

Jin follows me to the elevator's and we ride down to the parking garage, when we get into my car he says in the softest voice, "we can talk, okay." "Thank you Jinnie", I say smiling.

We take the pizzas back to the hospital and get Hoseok to eat two slices before his pain meds kick in and he falls back to sleep, Yoongi and Namjoon are taking the boys home so Jin and I clean up the mess, we kiss Hobi good night and we leave.

Seokjin

When I found out Jungkook was back, my first instinct was to relapse, grab a bottle of Jack and a vial of coke and erase him from my memory, but I didn't, and I won't, instead I went to a meeting, two meetings actually, I needed all the strength I could get to be around this man. Gloria is my sponsor, I called her the minute Jungkook set foot back into town and she has been checking on me ever since. 

 "Where to", he asks. I look at him, "you know where to." "It's still there", he asks. "Yup, still untouched, so it's a little overgrown", I say. He pulls up to the train car and shuts his lights off, I get out and turn my cell phone light on, "come on, follow me." I lead him thru the weeds and tall grass till we come to the opening of the train car, "holy shit Jin this place hasn't changed, except for a new couch." "Yea well time and the weather wasn't good to the old one, I had to replace it", I say sitting down. "This place brings back so many memories", he says.

Very good memories, Jungkook and I used to come here when we lived in the group home, the other boys didn't know about it but he and I made it our own, we would come here to be alone, to talk, to explore each others bodies, this was the place we declared our love for each other the first time. "This is still here", he points to the heart with our names on it that he carved into the metal.

I nod, not being able to find my voice because I know it will crack, "Jin I have so many reasons running thru my head about why I left like I did, but none of them are good ones, none will make you or me feel better about what happened, I hate myself for leaving you, I love you so fucking much and I did everything in my power to forget you, I had sex with randoms just to try and replace you."

I stand, angry and hurt, "I don't want to hear about you being a whore and fucking every piece of ass you came across Jungkook, it doesn't make this better, did it work, did you forget me." "NO, I'm sorry I said that, you didn't need to know that but no I couldn't forget you, I couldn't replace you in my heart, it was always you I thought about, you ALL THE TIME", he pulls his hair and sobs. I sigh, "you broke me Jungkook, I didn't hear from you once while I was in that place and when I got out I find out you abandoned me and our brothers, you broke your promise and you left me, just like my parents did, I wasn't good enough for you or them."

"Seokjin, that is not true, it was me who was weak and not good enough for you, seeing you in that hospital bed, not knowing if you were going to live or die scared the shit out of me", he sobs. "I hate that you saw me that way, I didn't want you to ever see me that way", I say upset, "I know that's why you put me in that place and I don't hate you for that but I do hate you for not being there when I got out." He sat on the couch with his head in his hands, "I am such a selfish idiot."

He stands, looking down at the floor, when he finally looks at me I am startled by how fast he is in front of me and kissing me, I can't push him away, instead I pull him closer, devouring his tongue and reeling from his taste, I can't believe my Kookie is back in my arms. "I never thought we would ever be like this again", I say kissing his jawline, "are you going to stay."