"He's literally perfect, he's steadfast on his deen, has a good relationship with Allah swt, he takes care of his family and parents, he's God-fearing, good-looking, self aware and whatnot what else does one want, Aiman" She squealed with excitement...
"And He found you lost and guided [you]" -Al-Qur'an, Surah Al-Duha (93), verse no. 7
{Please listen to the attached video while reading the first few parts, the feeling is out of this world}
Aariz's POV
I had only one thought what should I think of right now? and the next second, I felt a huge hit on my back, I stumbled due to one of the cars hitting my back, barely leaving me alive and uninjured, they passed by me like nothing happened. And I was then standing in the middle of the road, alive, still. How? I could see a few other cars coming towards me, I quickly went to the other side of the road, looking around if anyone saw what just happened, hopefully not. I could see my car, opening the door I settled myself in.
I wasn't scared of what had happened, I was disappointed. In myself. With my mind, it was all disappointing, my heart told me I wasn't on the right track, my path was blurred. I must be doing something wrong, it was a sign of Allah to remind me that my روح (soul) belongs to Him and He can take it back any second. That could've been my last breath, and I couldn't even remember to say the Shahadah. What's gotten into me. Was that going to be my end? After spending all my life, teaching people to turn to the rabb before returning to Him, Was I going to end without saying the Shahadah. Am I a hypocrite.
This is probably the only thing in me that is different from dad, he never lets his emotions or state of mind control his actions, he does what's needed to be done at any given time, while me, like I did just now, let my state of mind control me. It controlled my body, I felt nothing before that. If it were my dad, he would never go to the road like that, he'd know what he's going to do. He wouldn't lose his mind like I did, he would never do what I did just now, and even if he did, he would never stay there, he would act, he knows how to correct his mistakes, unlike me, I froze, in the middle of a busy road, how intellectual of me. I've always seen dad make quick and the best decisions. His decisions never went wrong, we used to play chess a lot when I was young, ofcourse he was sure of his moves, and his belief in Allah was beyond my understanding, I've always wanted to be like him.
I went straight to the مسجد (masjid) nearby and cried my eyes out, never have I ever felt so vulnerable, sick, sorry and disappointed. I didn't think about my end. Or maybe I did, but I had forgotten it.
بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَٰنِ الرَّحِيمِ
١
Inthe Name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful. (1)
ٱلۡحَمۡدُ لِلَّهِ رَبِّ ٱلۡعَٰلَمِينَ
٢
All the praises and thanks be to Allah, the Lord of the 'Alamin (mankind, jinns and all that exists). (2)
ٱلرَّحۡمَٰنِ ٱلرَّحِيمِ
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The Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful. (3) مَٰلِكِ يَوۡمِ ٱلدِّينِ
٤
The Only Owner (and the Only Ruling Judge) of the Day of Recompense (i.e. the Day of Resurrection)
(4)
إِيَّاكَ نَعۡبُدُ وَإِيَّاكَ نَسۡتَعِينُ
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You (Alone) we worship, and you (Alone) we ask for help (for each and everything).
The Way of those on whom You have bestowed Your Grace, not (the way) of those who earned Your Anger, nor of those who went astray.
(7)
آمین Aamen
I went in sujood and surrendered myself in front of Allah, The Creator of the Earth and heavens, the Most Merciful, Worthy of all praises. The feeling of my heart getting light filled my whole body. It is true that the soul finds happiness only in the remembrance of Allah, that's its home and its final destination.
I cried until I felt at ease.
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3rd person POV
"MashaAllah" I smiled looking at the young man in sujood. May Allah guide the lost ones and keep us all steadfast in our faiths. Indeed, Allah guides whom he wills.
