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I wake up to the sounds of the birds whistling and trees shaking and I take a deep breath for what lies ahead of me today.

After last night I didn't know what to do but one thing was clear I couldn't keep feeling this way. Heartbroken and frustrated at everything and everyone. I'm unsure of my life at this moment and I tend to dwell in my thoughts.

Only one thing runs through my mind that us will never happen and she doesn't love me but then why do I still love her with all of my heart is this really necessary all this pain,tears and rejection is it worth it.

I have so much doubt in myself and I don't know if I'll ever get rid of it. When I see her my heart and mind says yes but deep down I know that this feeling is not healthy and not good but still I linger.

It's been 7 months ,a week and 5 days and I'm still inlove with her since day one.some people might think I'm a fool or idiot cause who would wait for someone so long .Truth is I only have eyes for her and it hurts knowing she doesn't love me in the way that I love her but at a point you have to realize love can't be forced and if you've done all you can do to make her fall inlove with you then you can't blame yourself.

We have to accept that the person we love don't see us in that way and I know it's hard to move on cause you poured everything you have into them . So how does one move on ,how does one forget them and find someone else or let people in and trust them. Is it possible the answer is I don't know and I can't seem to figure out the answer. Is it me am I the problem,is there something wrong with me,why am I not enough.

I love her so much why doesn't she love me ,is it so hard to just fall inlove with me and be all I ever wanted and needed . You are all I ever dreamed of and I wanted just you as you are . I swear you made every other girl unattractive,but I have to give up even though I don't want to.