Only one

heading 2.

I slowly drift out of my thoughts and back to reality.

I realise I'm late for school and I can't sit around anymore. I get on my bike and start to pattel as I'm following the path to school I turn my head and their her house is in maroon and all the thoughts crawl back, why doesn't she want me,am I that unattractive ,am I that hard to love whyyyyy...

I can't control my body and I just wanna shut down and cry but I can't. One question stays above all other.

Why am I still alive,is this my punishment for breaking all the other girls hearts,do I truly deserve this.

One tries to do the right thing but everytime I do my heart gets broken and I shut everyone out and build walls so high no one can come in but I broke all of them down when I met her and realized I actually love her ,truly love her.

All I wanted was for us to happen ,us to work out but she didn't want that and it kills me inside .

I've never felt this way about anyone she was supposed to be my everything, my one and only.

But she's still inlove with the dude that breaks her evertime and she still wants him even though she knows his just playing around and don't love her.

The always want the bad boys ,the one that breaks their hearts and don't want to make them happy. Being a good guy gets you hurt ,caring makes you a simp and loving them makes you fool.

I'll truly never have her but one thing is remains the same I'll never stop loving her. Even if she doesn't feel the same. I've never cried over some but she is someone else ,she is the only girl I've ever cried over.

I even asked her to be my valentine infront of the whole school and teachers and she said yes but I know she only did it so that I won't be laughed at and look like a fool infront of everyone. It made me so heartbroken I wanted to cut myself.

Am I going crazy ,am I a idiot or am I just a fool ?

Her smile makes me warm inside, her eyes drive me mad in ways no one can,her lips scream kiss me but their too far to reach and her personality over shines everything, yet I can't have her  because she is inlove with someone else.

Who doesn't care for her,think of her emotions, realize she is an amazing person and will stick by her side through thick and thin and that hurts me the most.

I just wanna shout with passion I love you!!! in hopes that she will open her eyes to see I am all she needs.

I am the right choice.