I wake up and head downstairs. I see everyone sitting down looking at me like I killed someone.
H: What? Did I kill someone in my sleep or something?
L: Or something.
H: What did I do?
S: You were floating.
H: haha so funny jokes over.
I make my way to the fridge and grab a bloodbag
Ho: He's not joking.
H: I- since when have I been able to float?
Ho: You magic has been dormant so it might stem from that. I wasn't floating last night.
H: Well I have to get ready for a day. long day.
S: Lets talk first.
Scott and I walk into a room and close the door.
S: What day?
H: I have to make things right. I have to Scott.
S: With the boys?
H: I mean I know that I dont want to be in the same room as Brianna but ill have to tolerate it.
S: Hey dont force things. Give them time. Spend the day with you family.
H: I dont know if I can give them time Scott. I was desiccated for 8 years. I cant miss my chance to try to pick up all of the broken pieces. I just wish I could not try so hard to feel like this.
S: Like what?
H: The feeling of wanting to feel wanted. Hope is such a force. When she's around I feel like there's not always room for me and it sucks.
S: Then tell her that.
H: No absolutely not. she'll yell at mean I dont like yelling. I never have I just put up with so much shit. I sound like such a baby.
S: No you dont. You sound sad and lonely Hugo.
H: I know I just dont know how to process anything anymore Scott.
S: Hey, just know whatever you want to do ill always support you.
H: I love you I really do
S: I love you too.
Scott and I kiss and we leave the room. We head downstairs and Hope looks at me angrily.
H: Im guessing you heard the conversation.
Ho: I did. How could you think that? Hugo I love you to death I would never make you feel like that.
H: This is exactly why I didn't want to talk about things. Do you hear yourself Hope? You were eavesdropping on my conversation. Why?
Ho: Because! I want to understand you I never have been able to and I feel like I never will. You started using and tried to kill yourself I mean what more could that say about things right now?
H: Wow. Even after 8 years that's all you can think about. Me using again? Take a look and a good look Hope. I am clean! What more do you want from me?
I grabbed Scott's keys and drove off in his car. I drive to the boys house and knock on the door.
H: Um- Hey Jonah.
J:What. Why are you back now? To use again?
H: That's not fair. That's not fair at all.
J: Why are you here then?
H: I-I- um
I start having trouble breathing.
H: I cant- help- Jonah
J: Why? You put all of us through hell! For 8 goddamn years! Why did you have to wake up?
I fall to the ground gasping for air and then it suddenly stops.
H: I-I just came for my paints. I need to paint.
J: Okay.
Jonah opens the door and I see everyone downstairs.
H: Hi guys. Just came for my paints and ill be out your guys' way for good. I dont want to be a burden anymore.
D: Hugo-
H: Tell me. When did I lose it? I just want to find myself again. I feel like I cant. Not like this anymore. Im sorry if I made all of your lives like hell. I just- im tired of everyone around me being such a force.
Z: Force?
J: What do you mean by force?
H: I feel like there will never be room for me.
D: Hugo-
H: Sometimes I wish I didnt wake up.
FLASHBACK
D: You dont mean that-
H: But I do Daniel!
