N.D.A [Choi Seungcheol (SVT)]

Beautiful

Here I am trying to make myself sleepy looking at the clock on my bedside table currently showing 2:35am I still feel so excited from what happened awhile ago giving me the conclusion that seungcheol still have this effect on me, thinking about it now after I left 3 years ago I deleted everyone and went back to my old life my life before I met seungcheol and before the NDA happened, did I even had a chance to move on? All of my attention is with my pregnancy how to keep Basti alive and healthy and after he was born I became a single mother and then I took my masters while working now he's here this is the only time I had a chance to face my feelings and the who I had feelings with.

I loved seungcheol as a fan and as a lover in the 2mons we were together i imagined him in my future our future together but after that one mistake it's gone. At the back of my head i still see him as Choi seungcheol my bias, my ex lover the father of my child if we ever have to start again I don't know what we could be there's always this feelings, unspoken feelings.

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Laughters woke me up as I checked the time and it's 10am it's late i usually wake up at 7 but since I'm awake since 2am here I am, laughters is coming from the living room I fixed myself and check I saw seungcheol and Basti snuggled together in the couch watching cartoons.

Even though they just met not long ago they're super close already it must be their connection.

"Mommy"

"Hi baby"  He run to where I was standing and gave me a hug I heard Seungcheol greeted me but I can't look at him after what happened last night.

"Good morning YN"

"Hey, Goodmorning"

"Sorry, did we wake you up?"

"Uh. No not really it's late anyway I should be up since 7am. Did you guys had breakfast?"

"Yes, he's awake when I opened the door so we just went down and had breakfast I can't wake you up cause it looks like you needed the sleep"

" I see, thank you for taking him."

"YN, what's wrong? You're not looking at me did I do something?" This time I looked at him shyly I don't want him to open the topic about yesterday.

"No no not like that, I'll take a shower I'll be back"

Before I can step out of the living room I heard him say something that made me stop.

"If it's about last night, don't worry nothing changed"

Nothing changed? What could that even mean?

—

We went down and meet with the rest we all decided to have our lunch in a restaurant not too far from the Hotel.

While eating I received a call from one of my co-workers just trying to update me since I'm not working in the office, but not knowing someone is eavesdropping.

Verbatim -

YN- Hello Ian!
I- YN what's up long time how are you?
YN- I'm okay, currently eating with my Friends and Basti.
I- Oh, wrong time?
YN- Is it urgent?
I- No don't worry it can wait, let me know when you're free.
YN- Cool, I'll message you when I can talk.
I- Sounds good, talk to you later YN.
YN- yeah. Bye Ian.

Call dropped.

"Who is it?"

"Ah, one of my workmates I think it's about the email sent this morning"

"Guy?

"Yeah, very cool and laid back guy"

"Am I a friend?" I heard that but I'll pretend I didn't.