Back Off! She's mine!

10 [ Lunch Date?

How will you suppose to overcome an obstacle? Are you not going to show any weaknesses of yours? Are you going to convince yourself that everything is going to be okay even though its not? Is somehing inside you will say that you are strong and you need to fight for it for everyone that loves and cares for you? Yes, I bet the last one is seemingly right.

But where are exactly the strength of yours coming from? Is it from your parents? From a friend or someone who is deeply special to you? Or from your own self? Or maybe from the one who saved and was watching us from the above? But what kind of strength is it? Just how long will you keep on holding to it?

I don't what had I did to get this. To have this kind of whatever this is but all I know to myself that I need to be and stay strong. I'm scared as hell but if I'm going to put myself at the edge, it will become more miserable and I don't want that.

Obstacles were made for us to be strong. That is what I always put in my mind. And I certainly and absolutely believe it.

VANILLE POV

I had done nothing but to write down what was roaming all around my mind to my BOOK OF WANDERING THOUGHTS.

I had been doing that for a week now. Since the day the doctor had told us that I am certainly ill but I didn't know how ill I am because I was sent outside the room by my father. I know why Dad had done that but I still have the right to know what it is. I'm the one who is sick and I need to know what's wrong with me. I should be all aware for myself. I know what's good for my body since I was called inside again and my doctor told me what I should and should not do.

I all forgot those things that made me happy. I always end up locking myself to my room all day. I skipped classes often last week. I haven't talked to anyone. My Mom and Dad are so silent about it and it annoys me. I haven't really been this annoyed in my entire life. Its freaking me out. I think I'm not at myself. That I was being possessed by someone. My thoughts are scramped up. They rumbles and gone mad at my mind that I sometimes can't even calm myself and its not good for me.

I slumped by body to my bed. Staring at the ceiling and for the first time, my mind thinks of nothing. It was all blank. Black, if I could see it. I closed my eyes. Refreshing myself. I need to calm myself. I need to calm.

Hours pass by, I got up to have lunch when my phone suddenly rang. I climbed up to my bed and grabbed the phone at my side table. I look at the caller's ID and it is unknown so I answered it.

"Hello?" I ask questionable.

"Hey Mikky! Ahm, this is Miku," she said. My brows furrowed. Where the hell did she took my number?

"If you're thinking where I got you number, I ask it to the principal. I ask for your files and then I got it. That's it," did she read my mind? But she's not here so how can she ... ?

"Ahm, Mikky, are you busy today? I'm just thinking if we could have lunch together?" She asked with a bit nervous in her voice. Is she asking me to go out? Wait! I totally forgot her! I was so busy with myself.

"Sure sure! Pick me up," I said and heard a sigh.

"I was actually right now, outside your house," she said and it made me jumped off to my feet and ran to my window to see her.

"Why didn't you tell me? Wait me up. I'm going to get you," I said and hung up. Hurriedly run down the stairs and remembered running is not good for me so I walk but faster like almost running.

When I was out, I saw her looking at the ground, playfully kicking the pebbles off. I forgot about this beautiful lady here. I forgot all about her. I'm so ashamed of myself.