hullo!! uhh i wanted to put a concern that i've had for a while and i don't know if it's normal.
i uh read lots of found family and platonic slight possessive ppl over each other and them being cuddly in general
i uh finished all the works i could find abt these specific ppl and now i just feel.. empty. NOT IN A WAY WHERE I CANT FEEL EMOTIONS OR SMTH LIKE THAT!!!! empty as in: "i feel like i'm going to cry myself to sleep bc i have no one to cuddle with and i want to be comforted"
i mean i've dealt with this feeling for a while and my main uh- distraction was fanfics. found family especially! i finished the lot of fanfics on Ao3 and uh i don't know what to do. i feel like the whole "touch starved" is going to come back and i don't want it to. i really don't. it's an old enemy. It's come to the point where i have to physically resist going into my little sisters bed and asking her if she could share the bed. same with my mother.
i don't know what to do,, i have plushies but those don't hug back and give hair pats and i already feel like crying even though i already don't get hugged a lot. i mean i only get hugged when said person feels guilty or bad bc they did smth to me.
i'm putting this here because i'm sick and fucking tired of this feeling and it makes me feel like it's squeezing my heart. i feel lonely, sad, pathetic and touch starved. i really want to hug someone right now, or receive cuddles. that's all. my distraction finished and now that feeling is here again. what's wrong with me?
i hope your day is going better than mines did : )
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