TW: mentions of religious trauma.
(If there is anymore tws, please tell me so I can add it :>)
I cannot begin to explain how horrible you have to be to raise your kid to believe in a certain religion or you go to eternal hell fire.
My parents are Muslim. if you are into that type of religion, I'm not shaming, you do you. But what you DONT do is force it on your kids.
I grew up believing that Islam was my life. Like, I cried endlessly when I lied for the first time out of fear and guilt. And the thing I lied about was just where I hid a toy.
As I grew up, I felt like this religious lifestyle is ruining my life and it's personally not for me. I know who I am and this isn't it. I can't do this anymore. I can't keep failing my religious class because I don't want to learn about it. I don't want to cover up anymore, I don't want to wear a hijab, I don't want to wear something that covers me up to the point where I can't breath from how hot it is. I want to show my hair without feeling like I failed god and everyone around me. I quite literally might die either way.
In my country, you get tortured if your LGBTQ+, I can't trust my parents who clown on gay people all the time. I'm apart of the LGBTQ+ community. Sucks, right?
It does suck, I hate it. I also hate that my only purpose of my life is to have kids. I'm supposed to obey my husband and if I'm "disobedient" he can literally fucking beat me up. Again, if you're Muslim, I really don't mind but this lifestyle is driving me fucking nuts.
I don't think I'm going to make it past eighteen.
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