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Shifting Rants and Realizations

A digital copy of what I think is an enlightening conversation I had with myself about my shifting blockages and doubts. What I did is just picked up an empty notebook that I decided to turn into a shifting journal, and started writing about what I think is keeping me from fully shifting. It starts as a bit of ranting then turns into affirmations.

  "I think there's a lot of reasons I haven't shifted yet. Shifting has changed my whole perspective and worldview, but half of the problem is that I need to change my perspective for shifting.
  For starters, I'm afraid. I'm afraid to have all the things I've ever longed for, the things I've wanted so badly that the ache brought me physical pain. I wanted fantasy, and magical adventures. A world entirely unknown and so perfectly familiar. I had taught myself from a young age that I could never possibly have that. It has become so ingrained in my life, my worldview and my habits, that unlearning it has taken at least two years. That little girl crying over imagery of Skyloft is still in denial that her deepest wish has come true, that it's been true this whole time. It's hard to unlearn something when it's all that you've ever known, this pining. And because of this, I think I'm also in denial that it's even possible.
  Part of me sees it as something that others can do, but it's so hard to hear someone else's story and understand that it's real. This tangle of fear and denial...these feelings overlap and intertwine, and they're very difficult to resolve. Gods know it's hard, I've been trying for two years now.
  Another major reason I believe I haven't shifted is the idea that shifting is so perfect that I don't deserve it. A large part of me feels like I have to earn it. But haven't I already? Is this not a right I was granted when the universe breathed life into my being? This belief, I think, is difficult to overcome when you're raised in a society that tells you everything must be earned, even your status as a human being. I have to learn, to understand, that if shifting is something that I have to earn, then I have already earned it. The reasons I haven't shifted are entirely internal, and I've understood that for some time now.
  I think I've understood, in concepts, what is holding me back. Obviously, the best way to solve these problems is to identify and understand them. This is my way of doing both of those things.
  I had thought of my blockages briefly, but not yet taken the time to put them into words so I could better understand them. And while this process has boiled things down to what I think are my three biggest blockages, there are still some smaller things I need to see on paper to drill into my mind.

○ The realities I shift to are real. They are real and they are imperfect. It's important for me to realize that my lives there are not perfect fairy tales.

○ I have my flaws there, as I do here.

○ Those worlds have their vices, as this one does.

○ I will be hurt, emotionally and physically. I will be stupid and I will be embarrassing. I will make mistakes.

○ In no reality am I perfect.

○ I am ****, as I am also Saria, Arielle, Kasumi, Mirelli, and Din. I am a princess, a hero, a wizard, a witch, a mage, a goddess and a warrior.

○ My life here is not my beginning nor is it my origin. I have lived these lives before and I will live them again.

○ I am divine, as I am wretched and as I am mortal.

○ I am infinity, born to be everything.

○ I am fractured into these lives but I am whole.

○ I am her and she is me. She is not who I hope to be, whose life I aspire to live. I am her.

○ I am the universe, shifting is my natural born right and my earliest memory.

○ I am capable of shifting, as I am worthy.

○ My doubts do not determine my capabilities, my understanding does not limit me.

○ I have shifted a million times before, as I will do again.

○ I am a reality shifter.

○ I am worthy and I am capable.

○ I can shift at any time, regardless of my doubts. No matter how unsure of myself I may be, I will always be capable.

○ I am.

○ Shifting is not complicated, shifting is not hard. Shifting is a natural part of my existence."