Remember When

5. FOR ME

"...from now on I will make sure that this opportunity for me will not be wasted."

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-JEREMY-

FOR SOME.... LIFE IS THE GREATEST BLESSING, but for me it turns out to be my curse and I see no reason to be thankful for this.

Growing up inside a rich Japaness Familiy is like living in hell. Having no chance to do anything I wanted was the kind of life I received.

I'm just trapped with this unfortunate fate of mine. They planted nothing else in my mind but to be whoever they wanted me to be. That was my fate and I must follow them no matter what.

The responsibility that I need to inherit someday makes me feel depressed everyday. I know I need to be that great person they want me to be, but this white marks on my face stops me from doing what I had to do.

Tinea flava or tinea versicolor, a condition characterized by a skin eruption on the trunk and proximal extremities caused by a fungus.

I guess I got this from too much playing of basketball under the sun. My dad blamed that whenever he got angry with me because of this marks.

Well this weakness became the greatest weapon of my enemies, my siblings from dad's other wives.

We'll he had 3 wives. Her second wives died as well as my mom. What's left was his last wife.

I describe them as my enemies coz they are dreaming to steal my important role in the family, to be my dad's successor.

Some of the children believe that they will get infected when they touch me, even though the truth is not.

I lost my confidence. Everyone in school avoids me like they didn't see me. That experience made me an outcast.

Voluntarily I avoid interacting to the others, well coz I feel tired from hearing various mean words from my classmates who used to bullied me.

Being alone makes me feel comfortable than being around with people. Looking back to that time my life seems so pathetic. I just have no choice but to be with myself, all alone.

"HELLO? Why are you alone?" A young cute girl approached me while I was sitting under the tree in a park not far away from my house.

Startled, I turned at her. For the first time a girl tried to talk to me.

"I'm sorry to bother you but I feel lost. This place is so huge and I can't seem to find my way back. Can I sit here for a while? I just want to take a rest coz I feel exhausted from walking here and there." Asking for permission but she just sit anyway even though I didn't allow her.

She's lost but she looks not bothered or scared. I can tell by just looking at her soulful eyes.

Her face is bright as the snow and I'm sure that she's a foreigner. I started to feel shy and tried to avoid her gaze. Surprisingly this girl didn't mind my appearance coz she moves closer to me.

"I told my dad that I will just look around but I lost my way. Well.. This place is really amazing and I couldn't believe that I'm here, it's a dream come true for me. By the way, I didn't ask if you can understand me coz I know you could." She just smiled at me.

"How did you know?" I ask with astonishment.

"Your reading an english book sitting under the tree, your wearing an eye glasses and you look like an outcast. It only means one thing, your a genius." She looked at me with scrutinizing gaze.

"I-I'm good at math b-but my english is bad." Stuttered, well I can remember clearly that my english skills are worst at that time.

She looks so surprised but after a while that statement made her laugh.