꒷꒦▪︎꒱꒱ - "a message to you" ; ruikasa

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( ＾ω＾) o o o o (＾ω＾ )( ＾ω＾) o o oo oo (＾ω＾ )

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my heart hurts just thinking of him.

why does love have to be so complicated?my insides melt whenever he's around me.

his face. his laugh. everything about him is so perfect.

but yet

i can't bring myself to confess.

what if he rejects me? or friend-zones me? i can't bring myself to just let it all out on him like that. i already have so much going on in my life- how's a boyfriend gonna influence my life so much?

even worse, i might be gay. he's probably not even gay either.. regardless of him joining a silly little club. what's so vital about the fact he joined a pride club? maybe he just wants to learn more about LGBTQ history...

..oh god, i'm overthinking it again. i grab the bottle of soda i got from the vending machine near my house and relax my muscles as i sit up on my bed.

i stare at my phone, laying face-down on my nightstand.

what if it's just ten-minute love? this'll be over eventually.

right? i think to myself as i grab my phone and open up instagram. i check rui's social, scrolling at all the photos he's posted of him. i feel myself heat up after a few minutes of just staring at his instagram.

god, i feel weird. i set my soda bottle and my phone down as i open up my nightstand. i might regret what i'm about to do, but what other option is there?

i look out my window and smile as i think of a future with the school weirdo. and then i get serious.

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"big bro! mom's calling you for dinner, hurry up!" i hear saki knock on my door and call for me as i regain my consciousness.

what just happened in the last few minutes? i rub my eyes and stretch my arms as i begin to recognize my surroundings. my eyebrows raise cautiously as i realize what happened in the past few minutes.

the door cracks open, but in a matter of seconds i get saki to keep the door shut before she sees something she'd never want to see in her life. i sigh in relief and check my notifications.

nothing there? i peer at the time.

19:47.

i roll out of my bed as i relax myself and tidy myself up. i feel a throbbing pain in my head when i get up, but it starts to fade as i stand for longer.

"coming," i call as i drag myself downstairs.

usually my parents 'hope for the best' when it comes to me, so they cook a lot for me as a sign to show that they 'care for me'.