I Love You

Chapter 2

I feel something heavy on my stomach, there is an arm around my waist. It was huge and muscular looking. For God's sake, this is why I don't want to sleep with him, he always put his arms anywhere. It goes to my belly, face, hips, and even my chest. I look up at him while I'm trying to get off his arm from me. He started to groan and pulls me closer. I sighed, I almost feel his breath around my neck. Now, he puts his face on my chest.

"Stay here." He says in his deep voice. This is ridiculous, I almost want to punch him.

And again I'm trying to get off him, but he suddenly pressed his lips to mine. "I said stay here." He says without looking at me. My free hand stops moving, I let myself groan.

Thirty minutes have passed, and yet I'm still awake, Jin's still stayed in his position. Does he not tired of it?

While he is in a deep sleep, I'm wondering if he can hear that I'm talking to him.

"You know what? My life is getting better and better without you. Will you still stay by my side if my life gets worst and worst?"

Just then, he answered. So, while I'm talking like a fool he's awake? I immediately slapped his arm with embarrassment. "Stop that," He warned. "And yes, I would still stay even though your life is fucking cruel. I hate it when you're struggling with it," He stops for a moment, he was about to continue his speech but then I covered his mouth to stop. His lips were so soft, I could feel it when he kisses me. He removed my hand from his mouth and said, "I'm not done." He says, shaking his head. I yanked my hand and change my position to get me back to sleep. The anger that I have now got worse because of what he said, I don't know what my reaction will be. I wasn't ready for that, but it's my fault that he's acting that way. I didn't think it would turn out like this, I wish I hadn't said anything.

He thought that what he was doing was a good idea for me, but it wasn't. Sometimes, I am ashamed of myself that I'm not putting any effort into our relationship, his friends know that he's in the relationship, and my friend doesn't know that I'm in a relationship. His parents that his in a relationship with me and he doesn't know that I have a relationship with him. He always asks me when will I introduce him to my parents but instead of answering his question, I'm gonna stay silent. But Jin didn't mind at all.

I was a useless girl to him.

All things go quiet, then Jin hugs me without saying anything. He knows that I'm upset. But I wish he knows that I'm not upset with him, I'm upset with myself. He goes his face to the top of my head and kissed it. I held his hand when it was in place, rubbing it.

I was lucky to have him, but he was not lucky to have me.

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My body feels so empty, I realized that Jin was out of bed. The door was fully open, I can smell his cooking bacon that I have on my fridge.

"Good morning, sleepyhead." He says he was half-naked, he does this thing every time so I'm used to it. While he was cooking our breakfast, I noticed there was a paper beside him. I looked up at him but it looks he was busy cooking, I carefully tried to get that paper but I was caught off guard by his voice.

"Don't touch that, it's nothing." He says with his lazy voice coming through his mouth. Fuck, there's something up to him, I said to myself. My mind is full of confusion, he had never done this before. Keeping a secret from me, also this is the first time doing this shit. I have this bad feeling, is he hiding something from me that I didn't know?

"Tell me," I said coldly.

He finally looks me in the eyes. "Love, it's nothing. You don't have to worry about it, okay? Don't think about it too much, I hate when you do that."
He pulls me into a hug, I know I can trust him, he knows I can trust him. Well, this is us.

He pushes me to look at him, giving me a small smile.

"Now, sit down and I'll set the food, m'kay?"

I nodded to respond, lowering my head for a moment. How am I supposed not to worry when he never does this thing before?

I sat down while Jin prepared the food. As I look at him, I just wonder how he will disappear from my life and how I will feel. Sad? What would I do?

"Let's eat."

I cannot express my feelings if he looks so weird he's making faces right now, I'm trying to progress it but you can't tell from his face. While we're eating, I hear my phone ring coming from my room. I continued to eat, I could feel he was looking at me but I ignored it. But then, Jin stops eating his food and I finally look at him. As I see his face, I can tell that there is something wrong. Not again...

My phone continues ringing until it stopped. I go back to eating and Jin's still not moving his food. After several more minutes, he's not still his moving food. I washed my plate and the pan he cooked.

My phone goes rings again, and I ignored it.

I've been waiting for him to make first of what exactly happening right now. But no words. I leaned against the kitchen counter, looking at him. His body froze but breathing. Until he moved from his place, putting his food away. As he is going to the kitchen, he finally says, "I have to go."

I was not surprised by what he said, I just nodded and looked at him without saying anything.

After that, he didn't kiss me goodbye. He just grabbed his blue shirt and left. When the door finally shuts, my knees got weak, and fall to the ground. I hugged my knees, my tears flowing down my cheeks. What is happening?

The house is quiet again, all I can hear now is the sound of me crying.

I want some answers, I want to know about Jin more. I don't want him to hide his pain by himself.

I walked through my room, and close the door behind me. My tears are not dry, yet I still want to cry for him. I flopped into the bed, finding my phone in my hands. I had two missed calls from Mom, I decided not to call her back, as it will not be that important.

However, I still want to know how's their vacation going, but I think they do not probably care. Because they didn't even care for me.

It's 9 am and I'm still sleepy. I closed my eyes to go back to sleep again.

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Hello, readers how was your day? I know this is bad but I hope you like it! Thank you for reading this! Loveyou❤

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