Call me when you get lonely (18+)

Chapter 11- aftermath- tess

I ran from mikes after what he said. The words he said play over in my mind. I stand next to teds blue bmw 1 series and wait for him to leave mikes place. Eventually he does. He walks over. "Tess we should probably talk. Wanna go for a drive?" He says. I shrug my shoulders. "Fuck it this day can't get worse" I say. I get in teds car once we leave mikes street I turn to him and say "did Mike like me since the first date". He nods his head.
"Said as much himself. He loved you till uni then he didn't mention it while you guys where only hooking up but according to him he fell out of love but you knew what to say to make him fall back in. Then he loved you till you pulled the hook up rule on him. Then he slowly fell out of love till he met the other girl then he fell for someone new" he says
I look at the floor. "Fuck i really fucked that up then huh" I say. Ted nods his head. "I'm sorry Tess but speaking as someone that Mike told everything to about the hook up rule you more than fucked him up. And it's easy to see why Cus it's a pretty fucked up rule. You fucked him right up. I was there when he hit rock bottom and he's doing a bloody good job at holding it together but last time he just drowned in sex and alcohol. He was a fucking mess most nights" ted says. I nod my head.
"God I broke the man I love didn't I?" I ask him. Ted can only nod his head. "Wait back track sorry so wait you do love him" ted says. I'm about ready to slap him but now that I think about it. "Shit I haven't ever showed that I do" I say. Ted nods his head. "Yep" he says.
Ted drops me off at home and I just fall apart. "I fucked up" I whimper. I stare at myself in the mirror. "What the fuck did I do" I whimper. My body shakes uncontrollably. "I FUCKED UP" I shout at the wall. Everything that I did to Mike flys back to me. "I REALLY FUCKED EVERYTHING UP" I scream. I collapse to the floor. "FUCK" I shout at thin air. I start to take deep breaths. Then my phone pings. It's a text from Mike.

Mike- we need to talk
Tess- where and when?
Mike- coffee shop in an hour
Tess- fine

Is it to soon. I ask myself. Given all that teds made me realise. Should I have just let Mike go after I fucked up. The short and easier to swallow answer is yes. The long, hard and complicated one is no however there's a easier rebuttal to the long hard and complicated one and I also know I wouldn't want to hear it. But realistically Mike was perfect and I treated him like shit. I double check that I remembered to bring my diary with me Because I know Mike won't believe me if I tell him what I'm gonna say.
I get to the coffee shop 5 minutes early and see that mike has beat me there. I get a coffee and sit down.
"The hook up rule. Us. It's all done" mike says. His blue eyes are more grey. They avoid me like I'm the plague. "Us? We're done?" I say. I can barely control my emotions now. "Yes" Mike says coldly. I nod my head. "Ok. Well just know I always loved you" I say. Mike bursts out laughing.
"Loved me? Tess you never once showed me or said that you did. You treated me like shit from the moment we started dating at 14. We went to uni at 18 that was nearly 4 years ago I'm fucking 21 in 3 months and in that whole near enough 7 year period you've hurt me in just about every possible way. So I'm sorry I don't believe that bullshit, not for a second" he says. I can tell he's holding back tears. I place my diary on the table.
"There's your Fucking proof" I say sliding it over the table to him. He opens the diary and has a quick read. A tear rolls down his face.
"Fuck you tess. Your diary isn't gonna stop me. Your words aren't gonna stop me this time. You've hurt me way to many times. What did you just expect to show me this and suddenly everything's rainbows and lollipops. Well that's not how this works" he says. He slides the diary back to me. He then gets up from the table and leaves. "Fuck" I mutter holding back tears of my own.
I pull my phone out my pocket and phone ted. It refuses to connect as the line is busy. I walk home. Once I get through the front door the water works start. "I FUCKED EVERYTHING UP" I scream at thin air. My phone starts to ring. I look over and see teds number on the screen. I pick up. "You need a friend right now?" He says when I pick up. I whimper a yes in reply. I hear a car pull up. He hangs up then there's a knock at my door. I get up and go over to the door. Ted is stood there on my doorstep with a bottle of red wine in his hand. "Mike said you like red" he says. I smile and let him in. "You probably don't wanna hear this but the smeared mascara it's not a look" ted says. I chuckle.
"Joys of someone tearing your heart out I suppose" I say. Ted nods his head. He goes into my kitchen and grabs two wine glasses. "Now you know what me and Mike did every night when you and him called it quits" he says. I nod my head. "Although I doubt it was red wine you guys drank" I say. Ted chuckles. "Oh fuck no mike hates wine" he says. I nod my head remembering the night he tried a bit of my red. "Cider I bet that's what you guy's drank" I say. Ted nods his head. "Mikes drink of choice unless he's making hard decisions" Ted says. I nod my head. I remember when he wasn't sure what uni he was Gonna Go to he got shit faced off vodka and cokes. "If it's a hard choice he'll go for vodka" I say with a light chuckle. Ted nods his head.
His face then goes somber."so how are you holding up" he says. I reach for the glass of wine and ted nods his head. "Ah not well" he says. I nod my head. "Well I dunno how I saw it going any other way but I thought things would improve not lead to both of us nearly crying in a coffee shop" I say. Ted nods his head. Ted seems to understand the whole things quite well. "He told this already didn't he" I say. Ted shakes his head.
"No actually he refused to elaborate but said I should probably come to yours with a bottle of red and make sure your ok" he says with a genuine smile. "Buuutttt with that being said I can probably guess what happened" he says. I take a sip of wine. "Yeah I told him I loved him and he burst out laughing then told me I'm a cunt- ok those weren't his exact words but he may as well have just said that then I handed him my diary and then he just told me that it was never gonna change shit anyway. Then he told me to essentially get out his life" I say. Ted nods his head. "Shit he didn't hold back. But can you blame him. I mean what has it been 6 maybe 7 years. You've gotta admit your actions didn't exactly scream I love you" he says. It's harsh but it's true. I nod my head and take another sip of wine. "Your.... Your not wrong" I say. Ted nods his head again. "Tess you've told him this at the wrong time. I don't know much about this new girl he's met but apparently she's you hit she's not a dick, that being said I also know Mike. He's using her as more of a distraction than anything else" ted says. I nod my head taking another sip of wine.
Teds phone then pings. He pulls it out. "Oh. Oh Mike" ted says. I raise an eyebrow and slide over to see the screen. "What?" I say ted shows me a Facebook post. It's Mike with a blonde girl. "Wait a sec isn't that your ex?" I say to Ted. He looks again. " holy shit it is" he says. I'm holding back tears knowing I now don't have a chance. "I could break them up but Mike will never believe it's my may Cus she's got blonde hair now and all the pictures I have with her are when she was a brunette" he says. Teds phone pings again. It's a text from mike this time

Mike- meet me at the coffee shop I want you to meet someone
Ted- uh if it's the girl from your Facebook post then I already know her
Mike- ok well now we need to talk as well then

He looks at me. "I'm gonna go and see Mike I'll come back after ok" he says. I nod my head. "Ok" I say. He leaves the wine bottle on the table and leaves. I pour myself another glass of wine and sigh. "I've fucked it up" I say.