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play date Part 11

i woke up and kissed ralph "you're so pretty." i said i got dressed i put on some sweat pants and a sweat shirt ralph looked at me "you look... good." said ralph i looked at him confused "what do i look weird?" i asked "no ive just never seen you wear anything other than your normal sweater and jeans." ralph said i went downstairs "im either gonna watch tv or go to the park and draw." i said i sat there for a minute before grabbing the food for the snakes and spiders then i went to the shed and fed them one by one then i went inside put the food down and grabbed fox food and cat food feed them put that down "miss rossily will probaly come soon so you might want to get ready." i said then the door rang "and here she is now." i said i opened the door she didn't wear a dress just a pair of pants and a sweat shirt and she had a few pets a dog a squirle and a sugar glider "This is emily shes a pit bull this is fluff ball shes a red squirl and this is sugar shes a sugar glider i heard you have pets?" said rossily happily "yes do you want me to get them although the shed ones cant come inside." i said she nodded and i headed upstairs i grabbed them gently and went down stairs "this is fredrick sandy samantha the fencec foxes orange tail the fox and muddy the cat." i said "aww there so cute can i pet them!" said rossily i nodded she petted them they all loved her "would you like to see the pets in the shed they might be a little scary?" i asked rossily nodded i brought her to the shed "this is slithers legless ellie and line there snakes im not sure what kind they don't bite the other 2 do and these are skitters leaf and flower there spiders they won't hurt you the rest will." i said pointing to them she seemed alittle disgusted "oh so you have pests as pets?" rossily said i looked at her "there not pests." i said defending them "well they're scary i would like to just play with the fox in the back yard if thats ok?" she said i relized she wasn't being mean she just was scared i nodded i brought every one outside margret came throught the fence "oh hi henry whos this?" margert said i looked at her anoyied "this is rossily shes Peter's girlfriend now what do you need?" i asked "oh i just wanted to know if you've read the news sorry for what happened before you must have been stressed." margret said she had that look she got when she was faking being sweet i grabbed the news and read it in my head boys parents put in jail after being caught terible crimnals luanne and simon the boys two kids peter and henry were sad while they told us they were great people and we never would have known "hey i never said that!" i said i gave it back to her she shruged and left "hey would you mind letting me stay over like live here?" asked rossily i talked to ralph and Peter They said it was ok i go back out "yeah you can stay." i tell rossily "but do not come in my  room at night if im being overly loud downstairs just try to sleep or get ralph it might happen from time to time if i don't eat alot do not try to convince me to eat me and do not let the foxs out if i do not talk im not mad if im crying don't try to help ok?" i said she nodded i went inside i made some lunch we all ate then we just kinda sat there akwardly then we all talked until dinner i made dinner we ate i went to my room with ralph peter went with rossily i hugged and kissed ralph everyone had fallen asleep except me then the voice it was back "hey you haven't been being as nice to ralph treat him good to i bet he wonders if you still love him?" it said i ignored it "hey atlest eat some food." it said "fine if it will shut you up." i said angrily i went downstairs and ate some toast but the rest was right there and i was hungry "well just eat more then." it said "argh why are you being so talktive now?" i asked but it was good food I ate Why did i eat i started bleeding i screamed great now i was being loud if someone woke up that would be terible i bleed for at least an hour when it finally stopped i wiped my mouth with a paper towl and cleaned the floor "cut it won't hurt." the voice said i grabbed the knife cut myself again all up and down my arms both of them both hands the voice left me again i dropped the knife ow it hurt to move my arms i put my gloves on rolled down my sleves it didn't bleed through i made sure it wasn't to big no one can find out not again i went back to bed i woke up in the morning i kissed ralph i hugged him tightly my arm didn't hurt anymore i looked at it "what did you cut your arm again?" asked ralph seriosly i nodded "but it didn't hurt  this time it was nice i trust the voice it doesn't hurt me anymore i cut but it just feels nice." i said calmly "STOP LISTING TO THE VOICE ITS NOT GONNA HELP I PROMISE!" ralph yelled as if i couldn't hear i hugged him "i know you told me already but it's just that I just can't help it it feels so good when it happens but i hate it after because you cry and i hate seeing you cry." i said he grabbed me and pulled me into a hug i laid my head in his lap he was sitting up he patted my head i closed my eyes smiling "im sorry for making you cry by doing this." i said softly he patted my hair more petting it now "it's not your fault can you try not to?" he said "i argued with it before it asked to do the cutting." i said "about what?" asked ralph oh fuck i don't want him to worry "uhm nothing just food i didn't win but i cleaned it up so its ok." i said he looked at me and frowned he hugged me tightly "Let's go downstairs im gonna eat i want you to sit on the couch." he said he bought me downstairs I sat on the couch he ate his food then sat next to me i laid next to him he kissed me again and hugged me tightly i looked at him "do you wanna watch a movie?" i asked he nodded i turned on the tv i clicked on the movie site and chose one he smiled and we laid there he was still petting my hair (idk what to call it) i smiled happily we finished the movie peter came downstairs and ate some toast "im gonna take the foxes to the park and draw while they play in a minute ok?" i asked ralph he nodded "don't forget your phone i'll put your bag together." ralph said getting up and grabbing my back pack he got some stuff and put it in i grabbed my notebooks penciles pens and markers i put the foxes on their leash and left i went to the park it wasn't a far walk because we lived a block away i tied their leashes to the bench and drew i had drawn a lot of pictuers then my phone turned on with a text 

ralphie:hey henry its been a while do you want me to come over to you theres a snack in your bag btw 

henry❤️❤️❤️:mk you can come over meet you at the gate?

ralpie:mk meet you there 

i turned my phone off and grabbed the leash i set down my art stuff and went to the gate he hugged me i grabbed his arm and dragged him to what i thought was the bench but my stuff wasn't there someone took it i looked around there it was my notebooks and backpack they must have put the rest in the backpack nicely i looked at her angrily she was talking to some one a kid who looked like her was in the tree near by she must have been about my age the kid had orange hair tied up in a pony tail she had a coat tied around her waist and a green shirt with ripped jeans the mom on the other hand had a dress and her hair was in an karen hair cut i walked over "miss i think you have my notebook." i said as nicely as possible she looked at me clearly annoyed "no this can't be yours it was over there." the mom said i smiled "yes i left it there." i said she looked at me and shooed me away "this is not yours." the mom said quite rudely i walked back to ralph "the lady won't give it back she doesn't believe it's mine." i told him he looked at me "come on i'll help you get it back." he said we went back over to the mom "oh you brought your brother to help you steal." she said "uh im not his brother actually." ralph said "oh wow your friend im karen by the way." karen said "im his boyfriend actually and i would like it if you gave him his stuff back." said ralph matter of factly she looked at us in dissgust i looked at him "eww thats gross my daughter here would be perfect for you." karen said "no i quite like him and are we gonna get the backpack back or not?" ralph said she tossed the bag at him "i don't want some gay boys stuff." karen said my face dropped my heart shattered not only from sadness but also fear i went back to the bench the kid came over to us with her own notebook "my name is emaria i love to draw to and your foxes are cute may i pet them?" she asked she was so sweet she sat by us and we talked and drew We talked she told us to meet her once a week she wanted to ask us a question