It's not death it's art

The ice truck killer

It was another early morning it was no different for Dexter or I. Taking the boat out on an early morning but I'm not a morning person. He smoothly takes us out in the water on the boat the water calm. I close my eyes. From the distance there are kids playing by the dock. Two boys toss a young girl in off the dock. G-D that would scared the crap out of me and I would've cried and or been mad. I'm not a very good swimmer I might have gone under struggling to stay a float. Yet another mistake my siblings ever make once. Mostly Dexter. He thought it would've been funny. Until he saw me struggling. Deb had tried to be encouraging I always felt like the youngest but Deb was mature for her age in lots of ways and as Dexter likes to point out even when I'm like 30 I look like I'm 14.

This was some time ago though. I can't swim where it's not shallow. But at least the water isn't you know red. But the scary thought alone had distracted me. Deb had send Dexter out in the water to help me so that he could pull me closer to her and she could help me out but he decided since I looked distracted he wanted me to snap out of it. But it did more bad than good. I was already scared treading water and now Dexter was in the water acting the way he was currently as he was in the water wishing he could be part of the fun and act normal. Watching how the girl got the two boys back. But in the flashback he thought it would be funny to make me snap out of it by pulling on me to make me come to my senses. Watching him was like a sea monster both in flashbacks and in the present.

Like he was some kind of crocodile. His eyes the only thing you can see. He tugged on my leg I screamed. I was already scared. I felt like I was drowning. He hadn't even pulled hard it was just kind of like an "I'm here" but I screamed and kicked out. Luckily he caught my foot before I kicked him in the face. Jesus kid watch out he called to me. That was not funny! I splashed at him. I wanna go home! I called out. You're shaking are you ok? He asked me once I got out of the water. Of course she's shaking she was in the water and now she's not she could be cold. And you scared her and she was already scared. Deb pointed out. Here she wrapped a towel around me. I'm sorry I apologized. It wasn't necessarily Dexter that scared me more than I already was. I'm just not a very good swimmer where I can't touch the bottom or see where the bottom is. I got lost in my own head at least it's not red or blood. Why would the water be red? She had asked. And if it was blood other people would be scared too. She was very confused. Don't worry about it. I shake my head.

Dexter had caught my eye and saw I looked as pale as a ghost. When someone already feels like they're drowning it probably isn't the best idea to pull on them to get their attention. I turned back to Dexter. Can we go home now? We got home and I was ok after that. Dexter was doing that now. He had been in the water feeling like sea monster looking like a crocodile before he got back on the boat. He pulls himself out where the boat is. He has apples in the cooler for us. I know he has to go back to doing what he does best. I hear the crunch of the apple and open my eyes. Take a nice nap while I swam around? He asked me. Dexter you know of all people that I am not a morning person. I have more for us. He said. More of what? Of course I know you're not a morning person but I got a couple extras the other day from that place you like so much with that guy you have a crush on Jack. He started. I snicker.

What's so funny? He asked. I wrote that in my journal. I wrote that for you to find but it was a fake entry. I knew you would go through it and read it. You gonna try to tell me it's not true? He lifted an eyebrow. Dex it's way to early for brotherly teasing. This time he chuckled. It's never too early for that. Brotherly teasing is what's normal for siblings to do. You are the most normal thing I have in my life. And that says a lot as you in your own are not normal by a long shot. It's my job to tease you and keep you on your toes. Whether because it's me or because I'm your brother. It's a job I enjoy and feel normal about instead of a job that I have to do or I'll go insane. It's strange you know? Because you make me feel normal when there's nothing normal about you and I make you feel safe when I'm a serial killer. Of course Dexter say that nice loud and clear I don't think the rest of the ocean heard you. I put my hands on my hips. I am the most careful person you will ever meet. He reminds me. While you are clumsy. Like how I have no real emption except when it comes to you and Deb and you have more than enough emotion for the both of us. We complete each other.